Hello friends…main Exbii ka ek purana reader hoon. Kuchh din se main registered karwake apna account bhi khola hai. Main padhne mein comfortable hoon. Likhne mein nahi. Aaj pehli baar likhne ka mann kiya kyun ki mere dimag mein jo cheez chal raha hai woh sab se share karna chahta hoon.
Actually kuchh din pehle main mera ek close friend ke sath s*x leke discuss kar raha tha. Woh MP mein job karta hai. Main na uska naam ,na jagah ka naam..kuchh bhi dena nahi chahta hoon. Uss se jab baat kar raha tha , tab uss ne mujhe ek aisa sachchi kahani sunaya, ki tab se mera dimag jam ho gaya. Woh kahani aap logon se share karna chahta hoon.
Woh jahan job karta hai, uss office mein, ek dusra section mein Mr. Patel bolke ek admi kaam karta hai. Yeh uss aadmi ka kahani, woh aadmi mera dost ka achcha dost ban gaya hai. Mera dost unke ghar jate hai, khana khate hai aur kabhi kabhi chess ka adda bhi jama leta hai. Achchi dosti hone ke karan unhone mera dost ko uska jiwan ka ek gahra sach bataya. But main likhne mein kachcha hoon. Main uss kahani me zada rang na chadake, sach much jo ghata uss ko hi apna tarike se aap logon ko bataunga. iss mein mera kuch credit nahi hai. Main jab sun raha tha, tab mera dil mein jaise uss kahani ko chitran kiya tha, bas utna hi keh paunga. Main Mr. Patel ka jabani se kehte rahunga. Kaam asan ho jayega. Iss mein s*x hai but itna detailed nahi rahega ,kyun ki itna private baat Mr. Patel khud bataya nahi. But story ka situation se aap samajh jayenge kaise kaise woh sab ghata unka life mein. Koshish karunga kahani ka flow ke liye ek smooth narration.
Aaj main zada kahani likh nahi paunga. Bas aap logon ko thoda premises kya hai kahani ka…woh bata dunga. Aur bahut jald hi kahani pura batake end karwa dunga.
Aap log kuchh demand mat kijiye,kyun ki yeh kisika life ka sach ghatnaein hai. So jo main suna , woh aap bhi janiiye. Bas ek cheez…kahani ko kaise feel karte rahenge, woh bataiyega. Aap log agar interested nahi rahenge, toh mehnat karke batane ka jaroorat nahi hoga.
MP mein mera dost kisi ke ghar me paying guest ban ke rehta hai. But Mr. Patel ek chhota bunglow type ghar kiraya mein leke wahan rehte hai. Unka ghar mein Mrs. Patel aur un logon ka nursery mein padnewali ek beti hai,jis ka naam Dia hai. Woh mera dost ko chachu bulata hai. Mr. Patel (abb se Hitesh naam se bulayenge) ko mera dost naam se hi bulata hai but unki patni yani ki Mrs. Patel (abb se Manju bulayenge) ko bhabi hi kehta hai. Gujrat mein abb Hitesh ka koi nahi hai. pichhla 5 saal se Manju ka parents bhi Gujrat chhodke Mumbai mein aagaye. Wahan ek flat kharid ke woh dono rehte hai. Kahani uss samay se detail malum hai jab Hiitesh engineering ka last year mein tha. Uss se pehla ghatna bhi bataunga jitna main janta hoon. Hitesh ahmedabad mein hi pad raha tha. Ahmedabad ke pass ek jagah hai(naam puchiye mat) jahan Hitesh apna maa, nana aur nani ke sath rehta tha. Uss ka father ek anath tha but achcha insan tha. Iss liye uska nana unko ghar jamai bana ke achcha pyar diya tha. Uska nani thodi hichak raha tha kyunki uss samay unka beti dekhne mein badi hogayi thi but umar mein kam thi. Gujrat mein shayad kam umar mein shadi hota hai lagta hai. Sab khushi se jee raha tha. Saal ghum ne se pehle hi Hitesh aagaya. Khushi se sab jhum utha. But zada time yeh haal nahi raha. Hitesh ka janam ka do saal baad maleria se achanak Hitesh ka fathe ka death ho gaya. Tab Hitesh ka maa keval 18 saal ki thi. Ek bada jhatka tha uss family mein. Dhere dhere woh log uss sadme se bahar ane laga aur normal hone laga. Kuchh saal baad hitesh ka nana nani Manju ka dobara shadi ke bare mein socha. But Manju khud hi nakach kar diya woh plan. Hitesh ka nana ke pass paisa aur property tha. Toh woh log ek family ban ke , ek aram ka zindagi bita raha tha. But hitesh jab college khatam kiya usko campusing mein hi job lag gaya keval 20 saal ka umar mein. MP mein jake job join kiya. Aur weekend mein ghar aya karta tha. But uska nana nani yeh soch ke pareshan hota tha ki itna dur , akela uska rehna khana sab akele mein karne mein taklif hota hoga. So uska nana nani uska shadi karwa ne ke liye soch liya.
Aagee ka bhag main asan karne ke liye Hitesh ka jabani se bolunga. Kaise uska life ka ek chhupa hua sapna achanak khud ka bina koshish mein sach ho gaya. Jo sapna keval woh dekhta tha mann hi mann mein, wohi same cheez uska nana nani sab dik vichar karke apne sab ka bhalai ke liye kaise sach karwa diya. Sab ka marzi se yeh kahani agee gaya. jo kuchh badha aya tha, woh kaise kaise dur hua, kaise woh ek sachcha pyar se badha hua family ,ek hi reh gaya zindagi bhar ke liye. Hitesh ka nana nani apna pota Hitesh ko khoya. Un logon ne ek naya pota pane ka asha kiya tha , aab woh log kabhi pota payenge nahi,but nanhi munhi poti Dia ko pake hi khush hai. Kyun ki doctor saaf mana kar diya Hitesh ko ,ki agar woh dusra bachche ke liye try karega to usska patni yani ki Manju ka jaan ja sakta hai. Pehle pehle Hitesh ka problem hota tha Nana Nani ko Mummy Papa bulane. Kabhi kabhi Nanaji, Naniji muh se nikal jata tha. But aaj saat saal mein sab kuchh perfect ho gaya. Jiss tarike se Hitesh responsibility leke zindagi bita raha hai, apna biwi , bachcha ka khayal rakhta hai, budha saas sasur ka dhyan rakhta hai, aur koi ata iss family mein to shayad aisa nahi hi pata. Yeh log apna damad se behad kush hai. Aur Manju..usko pehle to sab sapna jaisa laga tha. Aab wok ek achchi housewife hai. But yeh sab asani ne nahi hua…. Kaise hua woh main aap ko bataunga..,,
Main Hitesh. Bachpan se main apna Nana Nani aur Maa ke sath reh ke bada hua. Father na rehne ke karan mera Nana Nani kabhi kami nahi chhodi pyar aur support dene mein. Maa hamesha aapni mamta aur pyar se mujhe palan kiya. Nana ke pass paisa hone ke karan mujhe kabhi kuchh bhi cheez ka kami mehsus karne nahi dia. Main aise hi tej student tha. Iss liye sab log mujhe pyar hi pyar deta tha. Main badmasi bhi karta tha. But itna nahi jo ki bigde bachche karte hai. Chhota mota sararati karkat woh apni tarike se maaf kiya kar deta tha. But haan…mujhe hamesha achcha values aur morality ke sath ki pala woh log. Bahar zada logon ke sath mera dosti bhi nahi tha. Nana nani aur maa sab mera dost bhi tha. Aur teacher bhi. Dat ta bhi tha . Fir shikha ta bhi tha. Hum charon ek bonding se badha rehta tha bachpan se…yehi dekhte aya. Maine yeh suna ki mera pitaji gujar jane ke kuchh saal baad , mera nana nani mera maa ka dobara shadi karwa neke liye kosish kiya tha. Tab mera maa 23-24 saal ki thi. bahut sundar dekhne mein thi. Slim aur gori. Lambe baal tha unka. Paan ka patte jaisa muh ka shape. Unka aankh , eye brows , naak, hoth sab koi artist ka bana hua lagta hai. Barvi class tak padhi hai. Uske baad zindegi mein hadsa aur baad mein mujhe dekh bhal karke bada karne mein jut gaye. Mera koi mama aur mausi nahi. So nana nani ko wohi dekh bhal karte the. Ghar ka kaam bhi karte the , fir mujhe padhate bhi the aur time milta toh woh bade bade lekhak ke novel story padne mein ustad the. Ek beti hone ke karan nana nani bhi unko ghar mein rehne ka sab bando bast kar diya tha. Unko bhi book padne ka nasha lag gaya bachpan se. Baad mein woh ek hi cee tha jo woh apni khud ke liye ,apni mann ka khushi ke liye karti thi. Mera nani bhi itna old nahi the. But mera maa mera pitaji ka family nahi hone ke karan apna beta leke nana nani ka family ko hi apna family soch ke sab dekh bhal karti thi. Shayad uss mein unko khushi milti thi aur waqt bhi gujar ne ka tarika mila tha. Woh shant swabhav ki thi but hasi ka baton se hasta bhi tha aur tv mein dukh dard bhari film dekhke maus bhi ho jata tha. Kuchh log nana ji ke pass unko shadi karne ke liye proposal bhi laya tha. But kuchh mera nana ji..aur baki mera maa cancel kar diya. Starting mein nana nani maa se gussa karta tha . Maa ka jed ke liye woh bolte the ki sara zindagi padi hai tera, kaise gujaregi. Aur yeh bhi kehte the ki hitesh ko bhi to ek baap paane ka ichcha hota hoga. Baap ka pyar. But maa ka kehna tha ki agar woh kisi ko fir se shadi kiya toh woh admi apna adhikar dikhake mujhe tyag karne ko kahega aur nana nani ko chhod ke bhi jane liye kahega. Aab iss situation pe woh unke liye sambhab nahi tha. Woh mujh se dur nahi reh sakta , nahi ki nana nani ko akele chhodke aur kisi family mein jake apna grihsthi kar sakta tha. Maa ne mera muh dekh ke unka sab sukh khushi bisarjan dene ka faisla kiya tha. Nana nani dheere dheere unka baat maan ne laga , but andar hi andar future ko leke pareshan tha.
Issi beech main bada hote raha. Nana nani ko main bahut bahut pyar karta tha. Un logon se dur nahi reh pata main. Woh log mera duniya ban chuki thi. Sabse zada pyar karta tha maa ko. Unka sab kuchh mujhe bahut achcha lagta tha. Woh jo kahe, jo kare, jo khana banaye, jo kapda kharide mere liye..sab …sab kuch mujhe achcha lagta tha. Itni achchi hone ke baad bhi unko zindagi bahut kuchh diya nahi. Fir kuchh cheez deke fir le bhi liya. Hamare sab ka khayal rakhna, sab ka jimmedari uthana mujhe unke liye ek adbhut pyar ata tha mann mein. Main kabhi unko dukh na dene ka kasam khaya tha mann mein.
Nana nani mujhe hamesha ‘tum’ kehke bulate the. Maa bhi. Lekin main nana nani ko ‘aap’ kehke baat karta tha. But maa ko hamesha ‘tum’ hi kehta tha. Hum sab ke beech ek bonding tha. Nana ka ghar kafi bada tha. Nana nani ek bada sa room mein rehte the. Main maa ke sath rehta tha dusri ek badi kamre mein. Ghar mein aur bhi teen room hai. Jo khali pada hai. Saman hai. But main jaise jaise bada hote raha mera ek study room bana. Fir main akela sone laga . Mera nana ek din ek room saaf safai karke khali rema stury ka saman aur ek bed laga ke woh room mera naam kar diya. Main bahut khush tha. Akhin mera bhi ek identity ban raha hai. Main ek individual bhi ban raha tha. yeh soch ke achcha lagta tha.
Main school mein kuchh dosti banaya tha. Dhere dhere main adolation period mein aya. s*x ke bare mein janna, opposite s*x ke proti akrist hona…sab baki ladkon ke jaisa feel karne lagta tha. Un doston se main masturbate ke baare mein janne laga. Akela ek room milne ke karan main raat ko ekdin masturbate try kiya. But dar laga. Agar kisi ko pata chale toh. Sab kuchh socha, fir bhi uss din try kiya aur anadi jaisa karke khatam kiya. Mujhe itna achcha feel nahi hua. But haan..ek ajeeb khushi ka ek feelings se man bhar gaya tha. Kuchh din baad fir kiya. But same halat tha. Jab yeh baat ek dost ne suna usne mujhe ek book diya. Karreb ek mahina ho chuka pehla masturbate ke baad. Uss din badi dar dar ke woh kitab chhupake ghar laya aur intezar karte raha raat ka. Sab so jane ke baad main kuchh naya mehsus karne ka uttejana mein kaap raha tha. Har din ke tarah maa sote time aake dudh ka glass diya aur bistar thik karke mere pass aya. Main table mein pad raha tha. Unhone mera sar ke balon mein hath firaya pyar se main unko dekha aur woh muskurake good night bolke chali gayi. Har roj mujhe iss pal bahut khushi aur ma ka prati pyar ata hai. But aaj ek ajeeb uttejana mera sarir mein tha. Main intezar kar raha tha kab woh jaye aur main room lock karoon. Woh jane ke Thoda der baad main room lock kiya aur woh kitab nikala. Kitab kholtehi mera muh khula ka khula reh gaya. Woh ek pictures bhari book hai. s*x karte huye admi aur aurat ka pictures. Sab foreigners hai. Pehli baar yeh sab dekh ke itna uttejit tha ki jaldi hi mera nikal gaya.
Aise kuch din clata raha aur alag alag kitab milta raha. Lekin woh itna raw tha aur ek abdhut duniya tha ki woh cheez se mann hatne laga. Fir dheere dheere ek ajeeb tarika se mann uttejit hona chalu kiya. Raste mein koi ladki dekhke ya bas mein baithi koi ladki ka face dekh ke raat mein woh sochta tha aur masturbate karta tha. Aisa karne mein mann mein ek alag khushi mehsus hota tha. Jaise ki koi apna sahar ki ladki, apna jaisa atmosphere mein bada hua ek ladki ka sarir soch ke aur uske sath milan ka drisya kalpana karke mera kaam chalta tha. Sochta tha ki ekdin aisehi ek ladki mera biwi banegi aur uske sath main mann bhar ke s*x karoonga.
Yeh sab ke baad bhi mera padhai mein koi kami nahi tha. Main achche result karke age badte raha. Ek sunday. Main ghar mein tha. Nana nani ke sath waqt bita raha tha. Maa ghar ka kaam kaaj ke lage huye the. Nani bhi ma ko help kar raha tha. Main yehi sab dekh raha tha sofe mein baithke ek sports magazine hath mein leke. Uss din kya pata kyun, main ajeeb nazron se maa ko dekha. Shayad yeh mera itna mahinon ka harkaton ka phal tha. But main jab unka gardan hila hila ke nani se baat karte huye dekha tab main unka kandha dekhke mann ajeeb nasha mein boond hone laga. Fir unka blouse aur saree ke beech ka pet nazar aya. Mera nasha lag gaya tha. Achanak woh bathroom se pair dhoke ke nikle. Saree thoda upar karke pakde the. Mujhe unka heels ke upar se ungli tak puri pair nazar aya. Sundar golgol heels hai aur sundar ungliyan. Ekdum light color ka nail polish laga hua hai. Main unka face nahi dekha. Bas yeh sab dekh ke nasha ho gaya..
Uss raat main jab masturbate kiya mujhe khali woh sab cheez nazar ke samne aya. Main bahut time leke ek ajeeb adbhut naye feelings ke sath ejaculate kiya. Aisa aaj tak nahi hua. Mujhe orgasm ke sath jo satisfaction mila woh life mein pehli baar feel hua. Uss raat ek gehri need aya.
Main hamesha ek difference dekha. Mera baki doston ki maa ke sath mera maa ka bahut antar hai. Woh log ek bhari bharkam maa maa jaisa hota tha, but mera maa un logon ka chhoti behen ya beti jaise lagti thi. Ek to umar bahut kam hai. Sath mein woh dekhne mein bahut sundar thi. Unko raste mein college jate huye aur ladion ki tarah lagta tha. But kisko malum ki unka mere jaisa ek beta hai aur unki zindagi mein ek bhayanak hadsa ho chuka hai..
Uss raat ke baad teen saal bit chuka hai. Main engineering mein first year mein admission le liya. Mere room mein aab computer agaya hai. Aur mera barvi class ka achchi result ke liye Nanaji mujhe ek chhota digital camera gift kiya hai.
Yeh sab changes se zada jo change hua woh hai main khud. Mera nana nani aur maa ke proti mera shaddha bhakti aur pyar , pehle jaisa hai. Jo sab lok dekhte hai. But andar hi andar mera maa ke proti mera ek dusry tarah pyar mann mein janam le liya. Kab kaise yeh sab hua , mujhe bhi pata nahi chala. Nahi ki kabhi kisi ko iss bare mein pata chalega. Main usko pyar se mere mann ka andar ka kamre mein chhupa ke rakha. Beech beech mein wahan se nikal ke akele uske sath mera sabse achchi waqt bitata hoon. Aur fir se wahan rakh deta hoon. Iss pyar ko main bayan nahi kar paunga.
Uss raat mera maa ka kandha, pet ka hissa aur pairon ko soch ke mujhe jo ek satisfied orgasm mila tha, uss ke baad dheere dheere mere mann mein maa ke liye ek adbhut pyar jagne laga. Naki woh keval s*x se sambanddhit hai,…woh mera mann ka khushi ka sabse bada adhar hai.
Haan…uss din ke baad aaj tak main jab bhi masturbate kiya, mera khayalon mein sirf woh hi aate hai. Aur koi kabhi entry nahi le paya aaj tak. Main dheere dheere unko alag nazariyan se dekhna suru kiya..but sab ka nazar chhupake, even maa ko bhi aaj tak pata nahi chala. Woh aaj bhi hamesha ke tarah sote time ek glass dudh leke ate hai, bistar thik karwake mere pass ati hai aur sar ke baal pe pyar se ungliyan fitari hai. Aur thoda der baad ek pyari su smile ke sath good night kehke chale jate hai. Main jab unko soch ke hilata hoon, toh mera tann mann ek nashe mein bhar jata hai aur mujhe sab se zada santusti milta hai.
Maa hamesha light color nail polish pasand karte hai. Jab bhi woh kisike ghar shadi ya aur koi program mein jati thi toh unhone halka sa make up laga leti thi. Halka lipstick unka hotho ko aur bhi khubsurat bana deti thi. Mere sath mera badi didi jaisa lagta tha. Aur nana nani ke sath lagta hi nahi tha ki woh unka beti aur main pota.
Kuchh din pehle tak main mera maa ka har posture apni akhon se kayed karta tha. Unka tasvirein keval mera aankh se hi khichta tha, unki jane anjane mein tar tarika ka tasvir mera dimag mein set kar leta tha. But mujhe camera milne ke baad main uss se photo khichta hoon. Sab ka pics leta hoon. Nana nani ka bahut pics leta hoon..any time ..for any reason…. Sath mein maa ka bhi….digital hone ke karan kabhi kabhi maa ke anjane mein unka bahut photo khicha. Main sab photo PC mein rakha hai. But specially mera maa ka sab photo main ek secret folder banake chhupake rakha hai. Jo keval mere liye hi hai. Uss folder me maa ka har tarika ka photos hai. Haste huye, gussa ke time, udasi ke photos, pyar bhari jhuki hui nazar ka pics, batein karte waqt ka pics, kaam karne waqt ka photo, mere sath pics hai jo nanaji click kiya. Aur baki kuchh joit photo se keval maa ka pic cut ke alag kar liya. Aisa bhara hua hai mera PC maa ka photos se. Aab main har raat jab maa dudh ka glass deke chale jate hai aur sab so jate hai, main woh folder khol ke maa ko dekhta hoon. Unka har ada gaur se dekhta hoon. Aur ek sapne me dub jata hoon. Maa ke liye pyar ubhar ke ane lagta hai. Tab main ahista se pant ka zip nikal ke apna penis nikal ta hoon. Woh aab aur bhi bada hone lagta hai. Mera muththi bhi kam padta hai. Apna paanch ungliyan se usko tight pakadta hoon aur maa ke sath milan ka pyari drisya kalpana karke dheere dheere hilane lagta hoon. Aab pehle jaisa anadi ke tarah nahi karta hoon. Apna sukh pane ke liye khud hi shikh gaya kaise santusti milta. Mera penis bahut mota hai. Aur uska agli portion sbase zada mota aur round shape ka hai. Samne ka portion flat hai. Mera dekha hua baki penis ka pictures jaisa agli bhag patla hoke pointed type nahi. Thoda sa dumbell ka kinare jaisa hai. Lambai normal hai. Jab orgasm hota hai tab woh agli bhag ka cap aur ful jata hai aur muththi ke andar ane mein atak jata hai. But main orgasm ke time ankh bandh karke maa ke sarir ke andar mera semen chhodne ka sukh prapt karta hoon.
Mera dost jab Hitesh ko poocha tha ki woh internet s*x mein addict hua tha kya kabhi? Uss ne bataya ki uss ko kabhi wahan jane ka jarurat nahi pada. Woh apna khud ka create kiya hua ek duniya bana ke uss mein hi santustu prapt karta tha. Aur kya chahiye iss ke lawa!!! But haan Hitesh ne yeh bataya tha ki jab woh MP jake job join kiya aur uska shadi tay ho gaya, tab shadi ka date se pehle jitna din mila tha , woh sab din woh net se kuch s*x education liya tha…kyun liya tha… iss bare mein main time hone mein bataunga.
Aab kahani mein ata hoon Hitesh ka jubani mien. Issi tarah life chalta raha. Aur main engineering ka last semester mein pahuch gaya. Mera result achcha ho raha tha. Padhai mein main koi dhila nahi diya. Jab nana nani aur maa mera itna khayal rakhta hai, itna pyar dete hai, toh main kyun na un logon ko khush hone ka mauka na doon !! Mera padhai se sab khush tha. Main bhi normal ladka hi tha. Dekhne mein bhi thik thak tha aur sarir ka structure bhi achcha tha. Padhai ka pressure aur raat ka fantasy s*x world ke karan main baki student se thoda matured lagta tha. Ekbar main maa ke sath ghar ka kuchh shopping tha..toh main maa ko help karne ke liye unke sath ek super market gaya tha . Wahan mera ek class mate mera maa ko mera behen samajh ke baat kar raha tha. Jab ussko bataya ki yeh mera maa hai, toh usska muh ka halat kya hua tha , aaj bhi mujhe yaad hai. Mera achcha khasa ek manly appearance ke karan, college mein kuchh ladki class mate mere sath close hone ka koshish karti thi. Main kabhi bhi..aaj tak kisike uppar weak nahi hua , flirting bhi karta nahi tha. Woh log do char din mein samajh jata tha aur mere se dur hone lagti thi. Mujhe aapni maa chhodke kisi ko bhi achchi nahi lagti thi. Iss liye shayad main aapni maa ka hi pyar mein pada. Woh woh khushi ka khabar mera dusri kaan tak bhi nahi pauchhaya kabhi bhi. Mann ki baat mann me hi rehta tha.
Mujhe yeh bhi malum tha ki mujhe ek din aise hi ek dusri koi ladki ko shadi karna parega. Nana nanai ka ek matra pota aur maa ka ek beta hone ke karan mujhe malum tha, main mann me jo bhi soch ke roj khush hui na kyun, mujhe ekdin ek ladki ko chunna padega mera biwi banane ke liye. Tab mujhe ek dar bhi ata tha. Kyun ki main janta tha mera penis aur baki sab ka jaisa nahi. Yeh bahut mota aur age ka cap bahut bada round shape ka hai. Fir ejaculation ke time to woh cap ful ke aur bhi bada ho jata hai. Main kaise apne biwi ke sath s*x karoonga. Yeh soch ke main kabhi kabhi mayus ho jata tha. Agar woh ladki mera penis apni pussy mein na le paya toh!!! Agar mera penis thik se andar comfortably adjust nahu hua toh!! Agar woh dard se mujhe dur rahe toh!! Kaisa hoga pati patni ka milan!! Kaise mera family ka agli pidi paida hoga!! Tab kisko batayenge yeh sab problem ka baat!! Kaun samjhenge !!! Yeh sab soch ke dar lagta tha. Lekin aaj 27 saal ke umar mein ake ek baat mehsus hua. Pati -patni ka milan se jo sukh mujhe aur mera biwi ko milta hai , bahut kam soubhgyawan hai , jiss ko waise sukh pratp hota hoga.
Mera final exam se pehle mujhe campusing me hi job mil gaya. MP mein. Ek bahut bada engeneering construction company. Indian mein purana company me se ek hai.
Uss din ghar me jab yeh news diya , toh sab khushi se jhum utha. Iss liye nahi ki mujhe salary milega, woh log khush tha iss liye ki ek ladka, jiska baap bachpan mein chal base, usko uska nana nani aur maa palke ek independent admi bana diya. Aab lagata hai ki woh logon ka duty khatam ho gaya. Nana ka pair chuya to woh mujhe gale laga liya. Nani ka pair chhuya to woh mera sar pakad ke sar pe hath rakh ke ashirwad dene laga. Nana nani bahut bhabuk ban chuke the. Khushi se aankh namm hoke chak chak karne laga. Aur dono bahut sare batein kare ja rahe the. Maa ek side mein khadi hoke yeh sab dekh rahi thi. Jab main maa ke pass gaya, maa kuchh bola nahi. Lekin unke ankhon mein main jo pyar aur khushi dekha, woh unke pass barkarar rakhne ke liye main khushi se jaan bhi de sakta hoon. Main unka pair chhuya to woh mujhe pakar ke gale milne gaye. But main 5’11” ka tha , woh 5′ 5” ki, toh unka sar mera gale ke pass kandhe mein tik gaya. Woh mujhe pakad ke rakha kuchh moments. Fir chhod ke mera dono gaal ko dono hath se padak ke, ankho mein bahut sara pyar leke aur hothon mein khushi ka smile leke mujhe dekha . Fir mujhe nana bulaya to main unke pass gaya. Maa aur nani kitchen mein chali gayi mere liye kheer banane ke liye. Yeh ek cheez hamare ghar mein hota tha. Jab bhi kuch khushi ki mahal hota tha to ghar mein kheer banta tha. Main kheer bahut pasand karta hoon. Aaj bhi MP me mere ghar me kheer ka parampara jari hai. Mera beti bhi kheer ka bhakt hai.
Uss raat sab sone ke baad jab main maa ka tasvir kholke maa ko dekh raha tha, mujhe sham ka yaad aya. Maa mere gaal pakad ke mere taraf ek pyar bhari ankhon se jo nazar diya tha, woh innocence se mera pyar aur bad gaya. Main un me se kho gaya aur mujhme madhosi chha gaya. Main jhuk ke comp screen mein khula hua maa ka ek big close up picture ke pass gaya. Aur aankh bandh karke dheere dheere unki lips ke sath mera lips milwaya. Mera badan mein current sa khel gaya. Pura badan kaanpne laga. Main jhat se zip kholke apna penis ko pakda. Aaj mera penis ek dun ful ke, khada hoke, fus raha tha. Main usii fuli hui penis ko pakadke zor zor se jhatka dene laga. Aur lips mein fir se kiss karne laga. jaldi hi orgasm ke taraf pahuch gaya. Main sidha hoke baith ke full speed se hilane laga. Mera pura body se nichor ke sab semen penis ki nali bhar ke teji se bahar ki taraf ane laga. Main aankh bandh kiya . Orgasm charam seema mein pahuch gaya. Just mera semen nikal ne se pehle mera muh khul gaya , hawa lene ke liye main muh upar ke taraf kiya aur mera muh se nikal ne laga ”Manju….I love u” aur penis se semen chhitak chhitak ke girne laga.
Dekhte dekhte mera woh teen mahina bhi kat gaya. Issi beech mera final exam ka result bhi agaya. Aur mera job join karne ka time bhi agaya.
Pehli baar main ghar se dur jake rehne wala hoon. Aaj tak kabhi nana nanai aur maa ko chhod ke kahin raha nahi. Ek do baar school college ka excursion mein jake do chaar din bahar raat bitaya. But woh rehna aur aab bahar akela rehne mein bahut hi antar hai. Lekin mujhe dar nahi laga. Ek alag challenge jaisa mere samne khada ho gaya. Aur main uss challenge ko mokabila karne ke liye taiyar hoon mentally. But ek dukh mujhe kha ja raha hai…ki mujhe mera maa ko bina dekh ke wahan rehna parega. Nanaji ka strict instruction hai ki har saturday wapas ana parega aur fir monday jake office join karna hai. Lekin beech ka 6 din mere pass 6 saal lagne laga. Jab maa har raat sone se pehle mere pass ake mera baal mein ungliyan firate hai, aur mere taraf pyar bhari nazar se dekh ke smile karta hai-woh pal le liye main kitna betab rehta tha roj. But aab woh cheez se mujhe dur rehna parega. Maa aise bolti kam. Bas dekhte aise hai ki jaise ankhon mein hi sab ko kuchh bol dete hai. Aur aab mera jane ka waqt nazdik ane mein to woh aur bhi chup ho gaye. Bas naniji ko kitchen mein help kar rahi hai, ghar ka baki kaam kar rahi hai, tv dekh rahi hai, mera jane ke liye sab zaruri cheezon ko ready karke mere room mein rakh rahe hai. But kabhi kabhi mayus nazar se mujhe ek pal dekh ke fir chale jate hai. Unko bhi taklif ho raha hai honge. Woh bhi mere wager kabhi raha nahi. Mere liye hi unhone zindagi ka sab sukh sab khushiyan visharjan diya tha. Aab woh soch ke main bhi mayus ho ta hoon.
Pichhla 6 saal se main unse aur ek dusri pyar se attach hua hoon. Jo khabar keval mera mann hi janta. Aur kabhi koi jan bhi nahi payega. Unki pyar mein main kab se mere andar ek alag admi ka janam de diya hai. Jo admi maa se pyar karta hai. Unke sath ek alag duniya mein hi jee ta hai. Lekin usko bhi malum hai ki yeh mann ki baat keval mann mein hi rehga puri zindagi.
Aur pichhla 6 saal se main apni hi maa ko soch soch ke roj raat mein masturbate karte araha hoon. Usme mujhe duniyaka sabse zada khushi , aur santusti milta hai.
Dekhte dekhte woh din bhi agaya jiss din main MP jane ke liye train station mein khada hoon. Maa, nanaji, naniji sab aye hai. Company se mujhe wahan rehne ke liye filhal ek jagah provide kar raha hai. Join karne ke baad main dheere dheere apna rehne ka bandobast khud ki karoonga. Iss liye nanaji mere sath cha rahe hai. Nanijii bar bar nanaji ko kya kya karna hai woh yaad dila rahe hai. Mera wahan mein koi taklif na ho, iss liye sab bandobast sahi tarika se karne ke liye unko baar baar sab cheezon ko ek ek karke bata rahe hai. Last moments mein sab ko sab cheez bataneka yeh ek tariika main bachpan se sab ke andar dekh te araha hoon. Ghar mein bhi yeh sab discuss ho chuka hai. Maa mere pass mere seat mein baith ke mera ek ek hath unki dono hath ke andar leke chup chap baithi hai aur nana nani ka batein sun raha hai. Ek baar maa mere taraf dekha. Unka aankh gila hai. Maan mein kast ho raha hai unka . Woh uss feelings ko daba ke rakha hai sab ke samne. Mujhe malum hai maa ghar jake room lock karke bahut royegi. Main itna salon se unko thoda bahut jaan ta toh tha. Unka har harkat, har ada ka kya meaning hai woh main clearly samajh sakta tha. Main unhe kabhi dukh pauchaya nahi, nahi ki kabhi dukh dunga. Yeh mera khud ke sath khud ka wada hai. Main bhi maa ko dekha. Unka innocence face aur nazariyan mujhe hamesha ej ajeeb feelings deta hai. Woh mujh se dheere se boli ‘ tum mujhe roj phone karna’. Main smile karke dhere se gardan hilaya haan mein. Udhar nanji Nanaji ko sab samjha raha hai abhi bhi. Mera nana hamesha nani se behad pyar karte hai. Iss liye unka zada bolna unko kabhi irritate kiya nahi. Woh khud naniji se kam hi bolte hai. Mera maa shayad unpe hi gaya. Iss liye maa nanaji se bhi kam bolte hai. Sunte aur samjhte zada. Achanak train mein ek jhatka aya. Time ho chuka hai. Abhi chalegi. Iss liye sab utarne laga. Naniji mera sar pakad ke mera sar chuma aur utarne laga. Maa mera haath jo unka hathon se pakda hua tha. Woh muh ke samne lake mera hath chuma. Aur mera gaal mein unka daiya haat rakh ke ek bar firaya aur gili ankhon se smile kiya. Iss ka matlab mujhe malum hai. Mujhe thik se rehne ka, thik time pe khane ka, sone ka, thik se kaam karne ka, apna khayal rakhne na ..yeh sab barta woh bina kuchh bole mujhe samjha ke gayi. . Woh log bahar jake khidki ke pass khadi ho gayi. Aur train chalne lagi. Nani aur maa dhere dhere dur hone lagi. Aisa laga ki mera kuchh yahan reh gaya aur main kahin chal pada. Kya reh gaya woh keh nahi sakta. Mera mann bhari ho gaya. Aur train raftar pakadne lagi.
Office mein pehla din thoda dar lag raha tha. Sab bade bade engineers aur officers ke sath parichay hua. Sab ke beech mujhe nerves feel hua. Sab mera halat samjh gaya tha. Iss liye woh log mere sath aisa comfortable tarike se mil ghulne laga ki ek hi din mein mujhe initial hesitation aur dar bhulke confidence ane laga. Lekin ek baat hai.. Koi biswas nahi kar raha tha ki main 20 saal ka tha aur just college se pass out hua. Mujhe dekh ke itna matured samaj raha tha, jab main asliyat bataya tob sab haske mujhe gale lagane laga. Main gujrat se hoon. But woh log mera achchi hindi sunke mera tarif bhi karne laga.
Idhar Nanaji main office nikal jate hi woh bhi nikal gaye. Mera rehne ke liye achcha bandobast dhundne ke liye. Sham ko dono ek sath ghar wapas aya…yani ki jahan company humme rehne ke liye diya tha. Nanaji mera office ka pehla din ka experience suna. Mujhe bhi unka din bhar ka karname ka barnan kiya. Raat ko khana khake hum sone gaye. Ek room tha. Achchi hai. But ek hi bed. Iss liye Nanaji aur mujhe ek sath sona parega. Nanaji din bhar idhar udhar bhatke ,mera rehne ka ghar dhundte busy raha, toh woh bhi thoda tired the. Iss liye woh jaldi so gaye. Thodi der mein unka gehra need ka awaz naak se nikal ne laga.
But kal se main thoda uneasy tha. Kal bhi raat ko sone ka yehi intezam tha. Iss liye mujhe mera pichhla 6 saal ka adat se chhut na pada. Abhi tak PC ka intezam nahi kiya. Naya ghar miltehi sab kuchh connect karunga. But mere mann me mera har waqt ka khushi ka murti , hamesha ke liye jal jal kar rahi thi. Aankh bandh karte hi woh pura tann mann me chha jati thi. But kuch kar nahi sakte kyun ki main bathroom mein jake woh sab karke maza paya nahi kabhi. Muje to mera comfortable place chahiye hota hai. Uppar se roj ki tarah maa ka ungliya firane ka sukh aur pyar bhai nazron se sweet smile bahut miss kiya. Aaj bhi wohi same haal hai. Main chair pe baith ke aankh bandh kar ke mera pyari maa ko yaad kar raha tha, achanak yaad aya ki maa mujhe roj phone karne ke liye kahi thi. Kal toh pehla raat tha. station se ake sab kuchh sametne mein der raat ho chuka tha , upar se aaj office join karna tha. Iss liye call karna bhul gaya. Ab yaad aya. Main jhat se chair chood ke uthe aur mera mobile uthaya. Aab raat 11 baj chuke hai. Maa iss time mein so jate hai hamare ghar mein. Phir bhi main ekbar try karne ke liye socha. Nanaji ko problem na ho iss liye room ka darwaja khol ke bahar balcony pe aya. Ma ko phone lagaya. Ek bar ring hote hi woh phone utha li. Mera demag mein fraction of second mein yeh khel gaya ki maa jaroor mera phone ka intezar mein baithi thi. Iss liye itna jaldi receive karli aur inti raat ko bhi jage huye hai. Maa receive kartehi maine bola
” hello…maa…”.
Maa ke taraf se kuchh reply nahi ayi. Main fir se bola
” maa…kaisi ho tum”
Fir se sannata. Main bhi chup hoke samajhne ka koshish kar raha tha ki akhir hua kya. Main fir bola
” kya hua maa…tum thik to hona?” Mera awaz mein concern tha. Aab maa thodi der baad boli
” Kal tum phone kyun nahi kiye?”
Maa ka awaz me na jane kya tha jo mera kaan mein ate hi mera pura badan ek anjana feelings se kaap utha. Dil ki dhadkan tej ho gaye. Mujhe yeh bhi tasalli mila ki woh sahi salamat hai. Main khud ko samhalke jabab diya
” Sorry maa..kaal sab kuchh karte karte bahut raat ho gaya tha aur aaj office mein pehla……”
Mera baat khatam hone se pehle hi unhone mujhe rok diye aur bol ne lagi
” Bas bas…itna safai ki jarurat nahi”
Fir thoda ruk ke bolne lagi
“Main kal papa ko phone kia tha”
Main sochne laga , Maa Nanaji ko kab ph kiya. Shayad main jab raat ko bahar khana kharidne gaya tha , tabhi kiye honge. Fir mera dimag mein yeh strike kiya ki Maa ko mera mobile no malum hai. Toh mujhe kyun nahi kiya. Haan…unka ek hi beta hoon. Unse dur aya. Toh mera khabar toh woh lenge hi kisi bhi tarike se. Lekin mujhe kyun nahi kiya. Tabhi Maa boli
” Chalo yeh batao ..wahan tumhara kuchh problem to nahi ho raha hai na?
“Nahi Maa…Nanaji sath mein hai na.. . Tum toh unko jante ho. Sab wohi dekh rahe hai”
Lekin main yeh bata nahi sakta ki Maa tum se dur rehke mujhe bilkul achcha nahi lag raha hai.
Tabhi Maa boli
” Aur aaj pehla din office mein kaisa raha..?”
” Thik tha Maa. Sab mujhe achche se baat kiya. Aur mera jo boss hai mujhe apna koi purana pehchan wala jaisa mere se baat kiya. Sab bahut achche log laga. Lekin….”
Main chup ho gaya to Maa ne poochi
“Lekin kya?”
“Sab mujhe dekhke mera umar zada soch rahe the. But mera sahi umar jaan ke sab haas pade.”
Aise bahut sare baat maa se hote raha. Maa mujh se baat karke khush the. Starting mein woh jaise abhiman leke baat suru kiye the , woh ant mein jake ek pyari maa aapni bete ke liye dher sari pyar ujad karke mujhe bhi ek sakoon sa dila diye. Main realize karne laga ki maa se dur reh ke bhi iss phone conversation ke jariye unko mere pass mehsus kar sakta hoon. Ant mein maa good night bolke phone kat diye. Main kabhi Maa se battameez jaise pesh nahi hui, na ki maa ke sath kabhi loose talk kiya, nahi kabhi unko jabrdasti pakadke hug kiya ya gaal chumke ek beta ka pyar dikhaya. Mera parwarish hi aisa tha. Hamare ghar mein hum sab ke beech gehra pyar bandhan hai , sath mein sab sab ko respect dete hai. Respectfully pesh hote hai. Mera mann mein Maa ke liye pichhla 6 saal se ek ajeeb adbhut feeling grow kiya, but main kabhi unse s*x leke, ya double meaning baat leke, ya bina karan mein unko hug karna ya unka touch pane ka koshish karna….yeh sab kabhi nahi kiya. Naki kabhi karne ka mann hua. Haan…main unse pyar karta hoon. Respect bhi karta hoon. But woh pyar main bhasha se bayan nahi kar paunga. Jo insaan woh feel karta hai, keval woh usko samajh sakta hai.
Aise hi ek hapta gujar gaye. Office mein mera thoda easyness aa chuka tha. Mujhe kaam karneke liye responsibility bhi sopa gaya. Aur main khushi se woh karna bhi suru kar diya. Idhar ,anaji mere liye ek ghar kiraya me le liye. Ek bedroom, chhota sa ek drawing room, kitchen aur bathroom. Ek admi ke liye kafi hai. Ghar ke liye sab saman bhi kharid ke pura saja diye. Mujhe bas office jana hai aur kaam karna hai. Pehla sunday tha mera. Uss din shift karke main aur Nanaji ekdum sab bandobast pakka kar liya. Mera sab saman sahi jagah rakh diya. Mera PC bhi connect kar dia. Raat ko Maa se baat hua. Woh jaan ke khusj ho gayi. Mujhe akele rehne ke liye jo jaroori cheez , woh sab thodi bahut batayi. Maa kam hi bolti hai. But uss din apni bete ke liye concerned thi. Khane ke liye ek admi thik kiya Nanaji, jo dono time tiffin box se khana bana ke deke jayega.
Subha Nanaji Ahmedabad lutne ke liye nikal pade aur main office ke liye. Uss din office mein ek colleague ka shadi tha. Sab log sham ko wahan jane wale the. Mujhe bhi jane ke liye kaha, main hesitate kiya toh woh log bataya ki mera bhi invitation hai. Woh colleague ek hapte se chhutti liya , iss liye mujhse mulakat hua nahi ab tak, but unhone phone karke mera joining ka khabar pake mujhe bhi jane ke liye request kiya. Woh mera ki section ka colleague hai. Nahi jaunga toh baad mein kya sochega. Iss liye main bhi un sab ke sath sham ko shadi mein gaya.
Aaj tak main sab gujrati shadi hi dekhte aya. Aaj pehli baar aur dusre comm ka shadi dekhne ko mila. Office colleagues sab ek jagah pe baithe hai. Aur koi koi drink bhi kar rahe hai, main aaj tak koi nasha kiya nahi. Mujhe woh sab kabhi attract nahi kiya. Ek do baar test kiya. But permanently adat nahi banaya. Dulha yani ki mera colleagues se parichay hua. Dulhan se bhi mil liya. Main akela baitha tha , sab ko dekh raha tha. Baithe baithe yahan ek naya anubhuti hua. Mujhe yahan sab log ek individual person jaisa treat kar raha hai. Aajtak Jahan bhi gaya shadi mein, pura family sath jate the. Yahan akela apna ek naya parichay ke sath, ek alag respect ke sath baitha hun. Achcha laga…kyun ki main bada ho gaya. Mujhe aisa laga ki main bhi responsibility lene ka layak ho gaya hun.
Office ka ek colleague unka gadi pe mujhe ghar chhod gaya. Main andar ate hi ek ajeeb feelings hua. Yeh ghar aaj se mera. Mera hi rules chalega yahan. Jo bhi karun, jaise bhi karoon, koi nahi hai rokne ke liye. Kisi se darke kuchh karne ka bhi jarurat nahi. But sach yeh bhi hai ki main jis tarah se bada hua, mera parwarish jaise hua, jo values aur morality mujh me hai…woh sab mujhe har tarah ka bura kaam karne se bachayega. Har burai se rakhsha karega. Yeh mera gharwalon bhi jante hai. But fir bhi mujhe iss ghar ka malik lagne laga.
Mera dimag mein aya ki main bhi iss tarah ekdin shadi karunga. Mujhe aisahi ek ladki dulhan ke roop me milega. Sab mere shadi pe ayenge. Fir mera khud ka family banega. Yeh sab sochte sochte main fresh hoke , kapda change karke mera PC on kiya. Ek hapta baad mujhe aaj ekant me mera PC ke sath time mila. Main mobile uthake maa se baat karne laga. Main aaj ka din kaise gaya bataya. Shadi pe gaya tha , woh baat bhi bataya.. Maa bhi aise idhar udhar ka baat pooch rahe the. Main mera PC ka secret folder khol ke Maa ka tasvir dekh raha tha aur sath mein maa se baat kar raha tha. Mujhe achcha lag raha tha. Jaise unse main face to face baat kar raha hoon. Woh kuchh bhi bolne ke time kaise kaise unka ada ya posture kya hota hai, muh, aankh, naak kaise react karte hai , sab main janta tha. Aur unka baat sunte sunte main waisa pics dekh raha tha. Iss liye mujhe live conversation jaisa mehsus hua. Main ek sakoon aur khushi ka feelings se duba hua tha. Thodi der baad mera man me ek ajeeb pyar ane laga maa ke liye. But main uss ko daba ke maa se baat continue karne laga. Unke samne main woh zahir nahi kar sakta tha kisi bhi haal mein. So mera badan sirsir karne laga. Aur tabhi maa baat khatam karke good nitght kehke ph kat diye. Mujhe ek nasha lag gaya. Aaj itna din baad mera maa ka sundar chehra ka photos aur har pose mein unki alag alag ada dekh ke main dheere dheere uttejit hone laga. 7 din ka emotion aaj bhar bhar ke rom rom mein chhane laga. Main sapno jaisa ek duniya mein pahuch gaye aur maa ka tasvir gaur se dekhne laga. Achanak sham ko dekha hua dulhan ka chehra mera nazar ke samne ane laga. Main maa ko dekhte dekhte woh dulhan ko kalpana kiya. Aur mera pura badan kaapne laga. Main jor jor se swas chhorne laga. Mera right hand na jane kab mera penis ko hilane shuru kar diya. Main maa ki ek muskurati hui photo ko nazdik jake dekhne laga. Aur aise laga ki mera maa hii uss dulhan ka saj mein hai. Woh dulhan ki jaise saj dhaj ke mere taraf dekh ke muskura rahi hai. Mere khoon mein aag lag gayi. Aaj ek naya anubhuti hone laga. Main jor jor se hilane laga. Mera penis ka cap abhi se ekdum ful ke gol hogaya. Main chair main sidhe baithke do pair ko pura faila diya table ke neeche. Samne maa ka photo aur dimag mein dulhan ka besh me maa ko kalpana karke mera orgasm charam seema par agaya. Main aankh bandh kar liya. swas aur garam hawa chhone laga. Main maa ko dulhan ke roop mein kalpana karke mera orgasm mein pahuch gaya. Aur main full stroke ke sath sath fuli hui cap ko muththi me le leke jor jor se hilane laga. Jab mera semen nikalne wala hai tab mera muh se keval ”Manju…..Manju…Manju…” Shabd nikalne laga. Aur achanak mera dimag mein andhera failake mera garam garam semen chirik chrik se nikalne laga.
15 din baad 2nd weekend me main Ahmedabad aya. Maa besabri se mera intezar kar rahi thi. Kal raat Phone pe woh mujhe baar baar puch rahi thi ki main kitne baje ka train leke aunga. Kab pauchhenge Ahmedabad aur dher sare sawal. Tabhi mujhe ehsas hua ki zindagi me pehli bar 15 din tak main Maa se aur Maa mujhse dur hai. Nani ji darwaja kholke mujhe wahi gale laga liya. Pichhe Nana ji khade the. Woh bhi khushi hoke mujhse baat karne lage. Main andar aya. Aur apna bag kandha se utar ke neeche rakha. Maa un sab ke peeche khade hoke mujhe dekh rahi thi. Unki pyar bhari nazron se jo mamta aur apna bete ke liye udbeg aur khushi nazar aya, woh dekh ke mera dil pighal ne laga. Woh aisi ek sundarta aur shanti ka murti hai, jisko main zindagi bhar bina palak jhapak ke dekh sakta hoon. Maa hamesha ghar pe saree hi pehenti hai. Bahut respectfully dress chunte hai aur pehente bhi waise. Rakh dhak ke dress pehen na unko pasand tha aur koi bhi dress chunti thi jo unko puri tarah se dakke rakhe. Bachpan se main dekha keval nnki innocent face aur neck, pichhe ka sudhoul gardan, elbow se neeche ka hath ka hissa, dono hath mein do sone ka chudi, aur lambe lambe gol gol ungliyan , unhone left hath ki ungliyan me halka sa light color nail polish lagati thi kabhi kabhi. Main kabhi kabhi churake unka pet ka thoda portion dekha tha, jo ekdum gora, mulayam aur flat tha, yani ki unka pet ka jo hissa mujhe nazar ata hai usme koi fat jama nahi aaj tak. Pet neeche jake patli kamar me sama gaya. Aur sath me slim body hone ke karan unka umar kabhi pata nahi lagta tha. Koi bhi dekha tha toh unko 20 – 22 saal ki ladki sochti thi. Koi nahi biswas karta tha ki woh mera Maa hai aur unka umar ab 36 hai. Unka pair mujhe sabse zada akrist karta tha. Aisa sundar chhoti chhoti mulayem pair aur halka nail polish wali ungliya dekhke mujhe hamesha ek nasha ajata hai. Is aurat ko main jitna dekhta hoon, mera dekhna kabhi sampurn hota nahi. Jitna janta hoon fir bhi lagta hai main unhe puri tarah jan nahi paya. Yeh sabkuchh unke liye mera dil mein pyar aur respect badha deta hai. Hamesha unke liye ek alag anubhuti mere mann me chha jata hai. Nana-Nani ko pair chhuke main Maa ke pass gaya . Main bhi unse milne ke liye betab tha. Main unke pair chhuya. Main jaise hi khada hua woh mujhko pakad ke mera gale lagne chaha . But unka sar mera shoulder pe tik gaya. Aur dono hath se woh mujhe pichhe se bedi lagake kaske pakadli. Woh inta din ki duri mujse aise gale lag ke puri kar rahi hai. Nana – Nani haske bolne laga ki “kya Manju…beta ko aur jane nahi degi kya?” Maa mere nazdik rehke, unka hi hissa, unka hi khoon, jo aaj ek naujawan purush ban gaya, uss ko mehsus kar rahi hai ek apatya sneh ke sath.
Raat ko dinner ke time hamesha ki tarah sab log khane baitha. Hamare parivar me sab dinner eksath karte the. Maa generally serve karti hai but kabhi kabhi woh bhi sath me baith jate the aur self service chalta tha. Sab hasi mazak aur masti ke sath woh pal bitate hai. Aaj bhi sab log baithe. Maa serve kar rahi hai. Main pichhla 5 ghante se aya. Tab se sab log mera pichhe pad gaye. Mera sarir aur halat 15 din me sukh sa gaya, aisa laga un logon ko. Unko lagta hai main khana nahi khaya in 15 din. Bar bar pooch rahe hai office me kya khata hoon. Woh khana supply karnewala admi thik se khana deta hai kya, main usko thik se khata hun ya nahi. Ek laute pota aur ek laute bete ke liye.. sab concerned the, yeh main mehsus kar raha tha.
Maa aaj mere liye mera sab pasandida khana banayi hai. Aisa laga Maa mujhe ek din me sab kuchh khilake puri hapte ka kami barabar karna chahti hai. But main Maa ko dukh nahi pauchana chahta tha, is liye sab chat put ke kha liya. Malum hai isse Maa ko khushi milega. Unki khushi ke liye main kuchh bhi kar sakta tha.
Aise hi zindagi chalne laga. Weekdays me sab se dur rehke kaam karna. Apni dekh bhal khud hi karna. Maa se ph pe baat karna ..yeh sab ek routine ban raha tha. Fir weekend me ghar jane me ek khushi mahal ban jata tha. Fir sab ka pyar , mamta, sneh aur mere bare mein unlogon ka duschinta ke sath do din bitake fir wapas ana. Office me dheere dheere kaam ka pressure badh ne laga. Iss liye shayad sach much mere sarir me is ka chhap ane laga. Fir se weekend aya aur main ghar wapas aya. Mera halat dekhke sab pareshan ho gaye. Maa keval pocha main khana khata hun kya time pe. Unke ankhon me ek mamta bhara concern dikha. Nana Nani zada soch me pad gaye.
Aise do mahina kat gaya mera office me. Ab main kabhi kabhi mera senior ke sath site me bhi jane laga. Mera kaam me furti dekh ke sab mujhe aur achcha karne ka hosla deta hai.
Main jab yeh sab site visit, naya naya challenging kaam karke apna pasar jama raha tha tab mere ghar Ahmedabad me aur kuch chal raha tha.
Udhar ka baat mujhe baad me malum chala tha..kaise kya hua tha.
Nana Nani itna pareshan tha mera halat ko leke ki un logon ne mera is problem ka solution dundna suru kar dia. Woh dono raat me sote time apas me baat karne laga. Pehle yeh tay kiya ki mera Maa mera pass ayenge aur mere sath rehke mera dekh bhal karenge. Maa ko bhi problem nahi hona chahiye kyun ki woh hamesha apne bete ke liyehi sab kuchh chhodke aaj aisa ek zindagi chuna. Toh woh bhi is me khush hoke mere pass rehna pasand karenge. Fir woh log soche ki main ab 20 saal ka ho gaya. Baki same umar ki ladkon se main thoda matured bhi dikhta hoon. Sath me job karta hoon. Achcha salary bhi mil raha hai. Sath mein Nanaji ka sab kuch mera hi hai. Aur koi waris nahi mera Maa chhodke. So akhir sab kuchh mere pass hi ayega. So yeh sab count karenge toh mere liye achchi ghar ka ek achchi sundar sushel ladki mil jayegi. Nana Nanai yeh soche ki jab zindagi me shadi karwana hai aur ab is problem ka haal dhundna hai , tab kyun ka abhi uske liye ladki dhundke shadi na karwa diya jaye. Yeh tarika unko sahi laga. But jab Nani ji thoda time chup raha, kuchh bol nahi rahi thi tab Nana ji poche unko ki kya koi galat socha woh log? Nani ji tab bolne lagi ki nahi galat kuchh nahi. But aaj Hitesh ka shadi karwake uska life set ho to jayega. But hum aur kitne din jeyenge? Nanaji 60 cross kar chuke hai aur Naniji bhi do char saal mein 60 touch kar lenge. Woh log aur jeetna din hai, tab tak thik hai. But woh log janeke baad unka beti Manju bilkul akeli ho jayegi. Hitesh hai ek sahara. But biwi aneke baad sab beta biwi ka hi ho jata hai. Biwi ka hi sunta hai. Tab Maa ka sunna , maa ka obidient beta banke rehne mein bahut sara jhamela ajata hai. Biwi apni pati ke upar aur kisi ka adhikar seh nahi sakta. Biwi hamesha apna family ka lagam apnahi hath me rakhna chahti hai. Apna sas, jo uska pati ko pal posh ke aaj iss layak banaya, unko bhi wahan ghusna pasand nahi karte. Beta kitan bhi chahe, apni biwi ke khilaf jana matlab apni hi pair me kudhali marna yeh samajh jata hai. Iss liye sab janke bhi shanti rakhne ke liye dil me paththar rakhke sab kuchh manne ka koshis karta hai. But jo aurat apni bete ke liye pura zindagi visarjan diya, dobara apna zindagi me sab kuchh pane ka mauka ko apne hi hath se gawaya keval apni bete ka muh dekhke, jo apna pura zindaki khushi apna bete me hi dhunda–woh aurat ke sath agar aisa hoga toh iss duniya me akeli kaise jee payenge? Naniji ne boli ki jab tak hum is duniya me hai tab tak thik hai. But hamara jane ke baad kaun dekhega usko uski budhapa me. Woh log janta hai Hitesh aisa ladka nahi. Uska parwarish bhi us tarah hua nahi. Bachpan se woh sab kuch dekhte aya. Hamara pyar, bonding woh achi tarah se mehsus karte aya. Woh kabhi apni Maa ko dukh dega nahi. Bina baap ka zindagi me woh apni Maa se jo pyar, Maa ka mamta usko mila hai, usme kabhi baap ka kami shayad mehsus nahi kiya hoga. Haan..yeh baat sach hai ki usne kabhi kisiko ‘papa’ keh ke bulane ka saubhagya prapt nahi kar paya. Nana nani bachpan se sab kuch support deke aaj aisa ek insan banaya usko. But hai to woh ek laute. Ussi se hi iss khandan ka agli pidi ayega. Iss liye usko shadi bhi karna padega. Usko apne liye biwi bhi chunna parega. Aaj kaal ka ladki hote bhi sab aise. Apna pati aur apna bachcha ko hi apna duniya manta hai. Parivar ke baki sab ko leke jo ek family banta hai, aur usme jo sukh milta hai , woh sab aaj kal ka ladki logon ka mansikata mein nahi hai. Dhere dhere samaj byabasta aur shikhsa ka haal bhi dusri taraf ja raha hai. Sab idhar udhar bhatak raha hai lagta hai. Koi bhi kisi bhi disha me bhag raha hai. Na iss pidi ka koi lakhs hai na koi idol. Nana Nani yeh soch ke mayus hua ki agar woh log tabhi Maa ka na sunke agar unka shadi fir se karwa dete toh aaj yeh duschinta unlogo ko kat ta nahi jata. Tab bahar ka koi admi ake hamara family ko alag kar denge, Hitesh ko uss se dur kar denge, hum ko akela karke chale jayenge—yeh sab soch ke unki beti apna zindagi ka sab khushi apne hi hath se dur fek diya. Aur aaj woh ghadi agaya fir se waise ek paristhiti aneka. Aaj ek ladki iss family mein bahu banke ayega. Woh ake kaise bartav karenge apne sas se, apne pati ka Nana Nani se, yeh sob soch te unko dil pe kala megh chha ne lagta hai. Lekin kare to kare kya. Shayad yehi duniya ka niyon. Ap jiis problem se dur bhagte ho, woh problem aage apke liye wait kar rahe hai apse gale lagne ke liye. Yeh sab chinta me se woh lod duba rehte the. Aur har roj sone ke time do budha budhi yehi discuss karne lagi. Aise hi ek din unlogon ke dimag me yeh sab ke lawa aur ek solution nazar aya. Pehle woh log khud hi thoda ascharit ho gaye the. Baad me baton baton me sab kuchh reason laga laga ke, sab dik vichar karke, sab ka bhalai sochke, sab ka future ka kuchh planning thik karke dhere dhere ek faisla mein pahuch chuke. Akhir me uss bare me bahut chadhai utrai batein hone ke baad Nana Nani ek decision pe pahuche. Lekin tab bhi woh log bhi nahi jante the ki sach me yeh mumkin hoga ya nahi. Aur hoga bhi to us ke liye kisko kya kya karna padega, kya sacrifice karna parega , ya kis tarike se mumkin hoga yeh woh log bilkul nahi jante the.
Next day subha Maa naste me Nanaji ka pasandida methi ka paratha banayi. Sab log nasta kar ke apna apna kaam pe lag gaye. Nanaji ka ek business tha. 5 saal pehle jab woh bimar pad gaye aur doctor unko 6 mahina bed rest me rehne ke liye kaha, tab unka ek dost ka beta jo unke sath business me unka assistant tha, woh sab kuchh sambhalne laga. Us admi ne achchi tarike se business ko apni mehnat aur budhdhi se pakad ke rakha. Nanaji 6 mahine baad jab hisab nikas dekhe , sab bilkul perfect tha aur labh bhi pehle jaisa barabar hua tha. Woh aadmi bahut honestly pehle se hi kaam karta tha. Nanaji khush the. Fir unhone uss admi ke sath ek agreement kiya. Ab se woh business ko sambhalega. Nana ji keval hapte me ek ya do din ake uska hisab nikas lete rehenge. Aur jo kuchh faida hoga usko 50-50 hisab se dono bat lenge. Iss me Nanaji ko aur mehnat karne ka bhi jarurat nahi hai, sath hi sath paisa bhi ate rahega. Nanaji already puri zindagi ka mehnat se bahut kuchh bana liye the. Unko ab kaam karne ka jarurat bhi nahi tha. Is liye ab Nana ji zada time ghar par hi bitate hai. Aaj Nana ji aur Nani ji drawing room me baithke TV dekh rehe the. Maa naha ke fresh hoke , bhiga baalon me ek towel lapet ke kitchen me kaam kar rahe the. Lunch ke liye sabjian kat rahi thi. Nana – Nani TV dekh rahe the, fir dekh bhi nahi rahe the. Aaj unlogon ko dekh ke aisa lagne laga ki woh log TV ke taraf dekh ke aur kuchh soch rahe the. Ek samay Nanaji Naniji ke taraf mudke dekha. Naniji unko dekh ke kuchh samjhe aur fir se dono TV dekhne lage. Thodi der baad Naniji wahan se uth ke kitchen ke taraf chali. Kitchen me Maa ko kaam pe help karne ke liye unke sath hath batane lag gayi.
Thodi der idhar udhar ki baat hone ke baad Nani ji mera baat leke aye. Woh unka concern jatate rahe. Main kitna problem face kar raha hun akela rehke. Maa bhi samajhti thi mera problem kyun ki woh bhi kuchh din se pareshan the is ko leke. Unke sath ph conversation me clear pata chalta hai woh aaj kal kinta concerned hai mujhe leke. Aur yeh hona jayej bhi hai. Unka ek lauta beta hun main. So Nani ji ka baton me Maa bhi sai dene lagi. Tab Nani ji bolne lagi ki ab Hitesh bhi bada hogaya to uska shadi karwa dete hai. Yeh sun ke Maa Nani ki taraf dekh ke hasne lagi. Maa haste haste boli
” Ab…..shadi… Hitesh ka?”
Nani boli
” Haan…kyun nahi?”
” Mummy … Ab to woh bachcha hai”
” Hitesh 20 saal ka ho chuka hai… Naukri bhi karta hai…. Aur usko dekh ke kaun sa bachcha lagta hai tujhe?”
Maa muskurake sabji katne lagi… Unko bhi yeh sab malum hai. Tab Nani boli
” Har Maa ko unki beta-beti hamesha bachcha hi lagta hai..jab ki woh kitna bhi bada ho jaye”
Sabji kat te kat te Maa boli
” To ab Hitesh ko ekbar puchh lete hai…”
Nani namkin ka packets kat ke chhota chhota varni me bharte hue kaha
” Usse kya puchhna hai…”
Fir Maa ke upar ek nazar dal ke dekhe. Maa Nani ki taraf back hoke khade hai sabji kat te hue kitchen slab ke pass . Fir apni hath me pakde varni ke taraf dekh ke Nani boli
” Ghar pe hum uske bade hai. Kya hum uska bhalai burai nahi samajh te hai kya?…. Aur woh bhi aisa nahi… Hamesha hamara baat sunta hai”
Maa ka sabji katna khatm ho gaya tha. Woh mud ke Nani ko dekhte huye kitchen ka dusra taraf jane lagi.
Woh wahan rakha atte ki dibbi khol rahe the aur boli
” Uske liye to ab ek achchi ladki dhundni padegi mummy”
Nani ab varni ka dhakkan band karte huye kaha
” Haan… Yeh ek bada kaam hai. Ek achchi ladki hi to chahiye”
Nani dhakkan tight karte karte Maa ke taraf dekhi aur kehne lagi
” Jo Hitesh ka thik se dekh bhal kar sake. Akeli hathon se sansar bandh sake. Bachche ka dekh bhal kar paye. Aur hamare sath milke rehke hamare ek family jaisa banke rahe….”
Maa thoda chintit dikh rahi thi. Woh atta nikal nikalte Nani ko dekh ke boli
” Sahi kaha tumne mummy..”
Fir apna kaam ke taraf nazar firake bolne lagi
” Aisa hi ladki chahiye hamare Hitesh ke liye. Jo hum sab ko apna soch ke hamare tarah ek sath rehe paye….”
Maa thoda chinta ke sath apni kaam pe jute rahe. Shayad woh yehi soch rahi honge ki unhone dobara shadi kiya nahi kyun ki bahar se koi naya aadmi ake unka family ko tod ne ka koshish kare apna adhikar jatake. Aur aaj aisa ek nahbat ayi jahan patra-patri badal gaye but situation wohi same hai. Aaj kaal ka ladki..bahu bante na bante hi sasural me kya kya karnama karna chalu kar deti hai.
Nani notice kiya maa kuchh soch me hai. Toh unhone chuppi tod ke boli
” Aur to aur dekh ne me bhi achchi hona chahiye…hamara Hitesh ke sath bilkul match ho paye”
Maa uthke ake atta ka thali kitchen slab ke upar rakhe. Aur usme pani dalne lagi aur boli
” Aisa ladki mile tab na mummy….”
Nani ko thoda hosla mila. Maa ka side profile Nani ko nazar arahe hai. Unhone Maa se nazar na hatake bolte rahi
” Hum bhi yehi soch rahe the. Aaj kaal jo ladki logon ko dekhta hoon, usme se mann hi utha jata hai. Tera Papa ke sath isko leke bahut baat hua. Hum bhi pareshan ho gaye the. Kahan milega aisa ladki. Kaun khabar karega. Bahut sare baat chit hone ke baad hum yeh tay kiye ki hum itna soch rahe kyun ki hum sabka bhalai ke liye hi chintit hai. Hamara sab ka bhabisyat ke bare me soch ke chalna parega. Sab dik vichar karke hum ne socha ki..haan hai na… Aisa hi ladki hai….jaise hum sab ko chahiye”
Maa atta gundte gundte ruk gaye..aur Nani ki taraf mudke ankhon me ek surprised look ke sath aur hothon pe muskurahat leke puche
” Kya mummy…. Aap logon ne ladki dhund bhi nikale!!”
Nani ab ek smile ke sath uth ke Maa jahan khade the slab ke pass wahan ane lage. Tab Maa fir se pooche
” Kahan se dhundke nikale mummy?”
Nani Maa ke paas pahuche aur unke samne khade ho gaye. Nani Maa ke chehra gaur se dekhne lagi. Maa bhi thoda excited ho rahe the. Nani ke aankhon me ek mamta aur pyar bhari muskurahat chha gaye. Maa fir se puchhe
” Kaun hai woh ladki mummy…aur kahan ki hai?”
Nani dekha Maa nahake fresh hoke ek light color ki printed saree me aaj bahut sundar dikh rahi hai. Unke sar ke baal pe ek towel lapeta hua hai. Ek do baal towel se nikal ke unki forehead ke upar pada hai. Nani apna daina hath se Maa ka woh baal pyar se forehead se hatake unka chin pakadke boli
” Bahar kahan dhundu aisa ladki….jab hamare hi ghar me ek aisa sundar ladki hai to” bolke Nani ek chawdi smile karte rahe.
Maa is baat ko thik se samajh nahi paye. Woh koshish kar rahe hai samajhne ki aur jaise ki kuchh yaad kar rahe hai. Unhone ek bada sa palak jhapak ke Nani ko puchhe
” Maltab….kaun hai mummy?”
Nani apna smile barkarar rakh ke..aankhon me aur pyar aur mamta leke boli
” Kyun !!…. Hamara Manju sundar nahi hai kya?”
Maa kuchh pal Nani ko dekhte rahe aur unko kuchh samajh aye. Unki face pe jo chamak tha woh gayeb ho gaye achanak. Unki ankh sthir ho gaye ,ani ke upar. Woh bilkul stabdh ho gaye. Woh Nani ko ek dristi se dekh ke boli
” Kaise baat kar rahi ho Mummy!! “
Nani ab ekdum shant awaz me lekin pyar se kehne lagi
” Dekh Manju.. Main aur tera Papa is bare me bahut socha. Humko yeh bhi malum hai is ke liye hum sab ko na jane kya kya sacrifice aur adjustment karna parega. Na jane kya kya asubidha jhel na parega. Lekin iss me hi sab ka bhalai hai. Sab ka bhabishyat hum ko hi to sochna parega Manju. ……”
Nani iss tarah fir se wahi sab baat batane lagi. Aaj woh hai toh thik hai. Kal jab woh log nahi rahenge tab kya Manju akela jee payega? Hitesh aur kisise shadi karega toh kya guarantee ki woh ladki humare jaisa hi hoga. Manju ko woh kaise traeat karegi uska guarantee kaun dega. Fir wahi purana concerned. Aur aise hone me kiska kya kaise bhalai hai, uski ka firisti dene laga Naniji. Naniji yeh bhi bataye ki khud ka bhalai aur khud ka life secured banane ke liye agar samaj se thoda dur jake ek alag duniya banake hum khush rahe , toh isme koi burai nahi hai. Maa ek ascharya nazar se sab sun rahe the. Jaise ki unko biswas nahi ho raha hai ki Nani ji kuchh bol rahi hai. Woh khud kuchh bhi bol nahi pa rahi thi. Asal me unka muh tak kuchh aa nahi raha hai bolne ke liye. Andar hi andar ek tufan macha hua hai. Bhala , bura , paap, punya , nyay, niti, samaj ,sanskar sab unke mann me bhid kar ke unka bolna bandh karwa di. Woh keval Nani ko dekhe ja rahe hai. Unka aankh dhere dhere nam hoke gila ho raha hai. Bahut time baad jab nani ka baat dhere dhere kam hone laga tab woh Nani ka ankhon me ankhen dal ke, ek sthir dristi hanke, ek shant aur kathin awaz se puchhe
” Kya yeh sab Hitesh ko bhi bata dia aap logon ne?”
Nani ab ek maa ka pyar aur mamta bhara awaz se boli
” Nahi beta… Yeh baat tumhara budha maa baap, apni ek laute beti ka, apni ek matra pote ka, aur apni family ka bhalai ke liye hi soche hai. Is me ab sab kuch tumaha decision ke upar depent karta hai beta.”
Maa Nani ko kuchh pal dekh te rahe aur jab ankhon se ashu girne ka waqt agaye tab mudke wahan se daurke apni room me chali gayi.
Ghar pe inta kuchh ho raha hai. Lekin mujhe bhanak tak lagane nahi dia. Yeh baat mujhe baad me pata chala tha. Lekin ek baat main mehsus karne laga tha ki ghar pe kuchh to hua hoga. Kyun ki jab har din ki tarah us din raat me maa ko ph kiya. Maa pehle uthaya nahi. Dobar try kiya tab uthaya. Aur thoda khamosh laga. Mere se baat kar rahi thi , but bol to main raha tha , unhone keval ‘hmm’, ‘haan’, ‘ok’, ‘thik hai’, achcha’ aise bolne lagi .
Main soch unka mood off hoga shayad. Main bada hone ke baad kabhi bhi maa ko jabardasti kuchh puchta nahi tha. Hamesha unhone jo bolte the, main sunta tha aur mujhe unka har khushi ka khayal rakh ke jaise baat karna hai waise hi karta tha. Aise teen din chala. Office me kaam ka pressure araha tha. So us baat ko main zada khicha nahi. But
Us friday raat ko jab main Maa ko ph kiya toh Maa uthaya nahi. Main sach much soch me pad gaya. Maa ka tabiyat to thik hai. Fir main Nanaji ko ph lagaya. Nanaji bola ki ghar pe sab thik hai, chinta ki koi baat nahi. Tum kal ajao aram se. Main sun to liya but mere mann me laga tha ki jarur kuchh baat hoga. Jo sab mujhse chhupana chahta hai. Ek chinta dimag ke andar leke us weekend me yani ki shanibar sham ko Ahmedabaad pahucha.
Actually me hua tha yeh ki…Us din Maa kitchen se daur ke , apni room ke jake door lock kar diya. Dopahar lunch karne bhi bahar nahi ayi. Naniji jake bulaye, darwaza khatkhataye, but Maa khane ke liye straight mana kar diya. Jab raat me Nana Nanai sab dinner karke so gaye the, uske baad Maa uthke kitchen me ayi aur fridge se kuchh khana nikal ke chupchap khake fir se room me chale gaye. Nana Nani soch me pad gaye. Unlogon ne yeh expect hi kiya nahi ki suru me hi aisa reaction dekhne ko milegi unko. Unlog ne socha ki shayad woh log yeh ek bilkul galat step lene ja rahe the. Is me unka beti inta jor hurt hogi. Na jane bechara ko kitna dukh pahucha hoga.
Next day Naniji khud ghar ka sab kaam karne lage. Maa ko bilkul disturb karna uchit nahi hoga samjha. Unko thoda time akele chhodna sahi samjha woh log. Lunch me fir Nanaji Maa ko bulaye but Maa door kholke bahar ayi nahi. Woh log lunch karke apna room me aram karne chale gaye to maa kitchen me ake akeli khana kha liya. Nana Nani ko malum padta hai awaz se. But woh log bhi ab samne ake maa ko unwanted situation me dal na nahi chahte the. Aise teen din kat gaye. Agla din thursday tha. Subha subha naniji nasta banane jute hue the. Achanak maa kitchen me ake nani ko kehte hai ” main banati hu ” bolke maa khud kaam pe lag gayi. Maa ka awaz me ek aisi thandi aur kathik tej the, jisse naniji kuch bolne me sahas nahi kiya. Woh chup chap maa ko dekhe. Maa bilkul ek silent aur feelingless face leke kaam kare ja rahe the. Naniji chup chap wahan se nikal gaye. Maa ghar ka kaam kaj karna suru kardiya, but kisise koi baat nahi ho paraha tha. Maa apna kaam karke fir apni room me jake lock laga ke andar rehti thi. Raat ko nana nani sote time bolne lage ki shayad unlogon ka baton se unka beti ka mann me ek gehra chot ayi. Is liye woh bhi dukhi ho gaye. But hai to woh log unki mummy papa. So woh log khud hi apni kiya hua karam , khud hi sametna chaha. Agla din yani ki friday ke din subha nani khud kitchen me ake maa se baat karne ka koshish kiya. Maa pehle muh se jawab na deke, nani jo mangti hai ya karne ko kehti hai, woh sab chup chap karke ek silent jawab de ne lagi. Nani socha mahal thoda halka ho raha hai. Nasta karke nana nani jab TV pe news dekh rahe the , tab woh log dekha ki maa pehle jaisa dining table pe ake, lekin akela baithke nasta kar rahi hai. Aisa subha ka samay kat gaya. Jab lunch banane me nani ake maa ka hatt batane lagi , tab maa beti me dhere dhere directly baat chit suru hua. Aaj maa ka awaz kafi normal thi. Lekin aaj unhone fir se sab ka khana hone ke baad akeli table pe baithke khana khaye. Nana nani do pahar apna room me rest kar rahe the. Aaj un logon ko thoda khush dikha. Kyun ki jo paristhiti create hua tha , aab uska kala megh is ghar se hat gaya tha. Sham ke time naniji kitchen me ayi. Maa akeli chup chap kitchen slab ke upar hath rakh ke khade khade chai ubal na dekh rahe the. Nani ka entry se woh hila nahi. Jaise kuchh soch me hai. Nani idhar udhar kuch karke, maa ko ek tuk dekha. Aur fir maa ke pass ake slab ke upar ek hath tika ke khadi ho gayi.
Nani chuppi thodke maa ke taraf dekh ke boli
” Manju………beta…… har maa baap apne bachcha ka khushi ke bare me sochta hai. Hum shayad kuchh zada soch liya tha……..”
Fir jaise galti accept karne ka body posture hota hai, waise nani apna sar thoda jhuka ke , apna dusri hathe se saree ka aanchal mal te huye kaha
” Apna naseeb me jo hai, wahi hoga”
” Aap log akele kaise rehenge!!”
Achanak yeh sun ke nani jhatak se apna muh uthake maa ki taraf dekha. Maa nani ka look feel karti hai aur apna sar thoda jhuka ke apni pairon ki taraf dekhne lagi. Nani ko samjh ne me thoda waqt laga. Fir unka hoth pe ek smile khil gayi. Unki ankh me khushi jhalak uthi, dhere se maa ke aur nazdik ayi aur maa ka chin pakad ke apni taraf mod ne ki koshis ki. Maa jaise khadi thi, unki body ka position hila nahi , lekin unka face nani ke taraf mud gaya. Unka aankh jhuki hi hai. Unhone koshish karke bhi unka face pe sharam ana chhupa nahi paya. Nani puri baat samajh gayi fir bhi pyar se fisfisa ke puchhi
“Sach ?”
Maa nani ki taraf mudke unke kandha me apna muh chhupa li. Aur nani ko dono hath se bedi lagake pakadli. Nani haske unki ek sath maa ke pith ke upar rakh ke dusri hath se maa ki
Baal aur pith sahlane lagi. Ek maa apni beti ko param mamta se pyar kar rahi hai. Nani haste haste boli
” Arey pagli….is me sharma ne ka kya hai. Hum thodi koi anjan log hai…..aur nahi tu kisi aur ke ghar ja rahi hai…sab to tera apnahi log hai…”
Maa ne aur sharma ke nani ka chhati me muh chuupa li.
Main shanibar Ahmedabad pahuch gaya. Sham ho gaya tha ane me. Nana nani mujhe har bar ki tarah smile ke sath hi swagat kia. Lekin har bar ki tarah Maa wahan dikhai nahi diya. Main andar ake apna bag rakha. But mujhe samajh nahi araha tha ki jab yeh log itna khush dikh raha hai to , jaroor koi gadbad to nahi hai ghar par. Fir bhi Maa mere sath aise kyun kar rahi hai. Mera kaun sa galti se Maa mujh par naraj ho gayi!! Kya main unko anjane me dukh pahuchaya!!! Yeh sab bhavnayen mujhe ghir ne laga. Maa generally ghar par hi rehte hai. Aur aaj to mera ane ka din hai. Aaj to woh rehte hi hai. Toh fir kyun woh mere se milne samne nahi ayi.
Hum sab drawing room ka sofa me baithe the. Naniji paani lake diye peene ke liye aur fir Nana Nani mere se has has ke khusi ke sath bat kar rahi thi. Wahi sab purana topic. Mera haal wagera puchhte raha. Main unlog ka sawal ka jawab de raha tha chhoti chhoti shabd me. Kyun ki mera mann dheere dheere jidd pakadne laga. Agar sach me anjane me main koi galti kar bhi lia , to maa hoke unka yeh farz nahi banta ki woh samne se ake apni bete ka woh dosh batade.. aur chahe to jo marzi saja de. Aisa na karke woh puri haptah mere se thik se baat bhi kiye nahi. Aur abhi to woh mere samne bhi ayi nahi. Mera dil unke liye jiddi hone laga. Mera ankh jalne laga. Maine socha ki thik hai, agar woh Maa hoke apni bete ke sath aisa bartav kar rahi hai, toh main bhi unka beta hun. Main bhi unse jake milunga nahi, jab tak woh mere pass na aye. Main bhi nahut jiddi hun. Main bahut bhabuk ban raha tha. Fir bhi main khud ko control karke nana nani se baat kar raha tha. In sab baton ke beech Nanaji mere taraf dekh ke bola
” Beta.. tumse kuchh baat karna hai.” Main politely bola
” Kahiye Nanaji”
Unhone ek bar Naniji ko dekha, fir mere taraf dekh ke thoda smile ke sath bola
” Itna urgent bhi nahi hai. Tum fresh ho jao. Khana wana khake aram se baith ke batein karenge.”
Main mera room me jake fresh hone laga. Nanaji na jane kya baat karna chahta hai. Lekin main Maa ko leke zada chintit tha. Aisa hi bahut sare chinta se mann bhari tha. Kuchh achcha nahi lag raha tha. Dil bol raha tha ki hai to Maa isi ghar par hi. Daur ke jake unse puchhe ki kya mera gunah hai. But mera jidd mera pairon ko bandh ke rakha. Main ek naya pajama aur T- shirt pehenke jaise hi bahar drawing room me aya, tab nani dinner ke liye bulaya.
Aaj Nanaji aur main baitha. Malum tha ki pehle jaisa aaj sab kuchh honewala nahi tha. Nani serve karne lagi. Lekin main kitchen me Maa ki presence feel kar raha tha. Aur ek do baar to nani se baat bhi karte huye suna. Mujhe ek gussa aya. Sab toh thik hi hai. Toh kya main hi gunhegar hun!! Aur nana nani ko bhi Maa ka is tarah se behave karna, ya is tarah se mere samne pesh hona, jaroor nazar araha hoga. Fir bhi koi kisi ko kuchh bol bhi nahi raha hai. Khana khate khate socha ki shayad nanaji is bare me hi kuch batane wala hai.
Dinner ke baad nanaji mujhe terrace pe leke gaye. Garmi ka time tha. So terrace pe ake achcha feel ho raha tha. Thoda thoda hawa araha tha beech beech me. Aass pass ka area me aise hi sab private makan hai. Aur east side me ,hamara mahlle ka rasta jake jahan bade raste se mila hai, wahan kuchh flat building hai. Baki taraf dur dur tak dikhai deta hai. Udhar se hawa arahi hai. Nanaji kinare ke taraf jake , terrace ki fencing me tek lagake ek cigarrate nikale. Aur bolne laga ” tumhara Nani yahan nahi hai ab… Toh ek….” Bolke hasne laga aur fas karke ciggerrate jala liye. Main bola
” Nanaji…doctor aap ko smoke karne me mana kiya hai”
Unhone ek kas lagake dhuan chhodke bola
” Ek aadh pine me kuchh nahi hota hai…”
Nanaji haste haste aise batein sunane lage. Kuchh samay aise hi bit gaya. But mera mann yeh sab sun nahi raha tha. Mujhe bar bar yeh chinta araha hai ki Nanaji akhir mujhe kya batana chahte hai.
Is sab soch ke beech Naniji awaz lagai. Hum neeche gaye. Main nazar ghumake Maa ko dekh nahi paya. Kitchen me light off hai. Maa shayad dinner karke apni room me chali gayi. Mujhe bahut abhimaan hua maa ke upar. Maine kya galti kiya ki unhone mujhe aise saja de rahe hai. Nanaji mujhe unke kamre me ane ko kaha. Naniji bhi agaye. Nanaji ake darwaza thoda bandh kar diya.
Main bed ke pass rakha kursi me baitha. Nana nani bed pe aram se baithe. Mera tension bad raha hai. Akhir kya kahenge, aur us me maa ka kya talukat hai. Yeh sab hazaron chinta jab mera dimag me bhid kiya tab nanaji bolna suru kiya.
“Beta…hum tumhara parwarish ka koi kami nahi rakha hai. Bachpan se sab kuchh dete aya. Aur aaj tak tumhara sab bhavna chinta hum karte aye. Lekin ab tum bade hogaye ho. Job kar rahe ho. Hum ko chhodke dur jake akele rehne lage ho. Malum hai wahan tumko akele rehne me kuchh pareshani face bhi karna padta hai. Tabhi bhi… Yeh sab se hum ko bahut khushi hota hai. Tum ab tumaha zindagu khud jeene ja rahe ho. Us se hum ko bhi hatna parega. Aur hum bhi aur kitna din rahenge. Hamara jane ke baad bhi tum ko achchi tarah zindagi jeena hai. Apna family banana hai. To ab hum soch rahe hai ki tumaha shadi karwane ke liye.”
Nanaji thoda chup ho gaye. Shayad mera reaction parakh rahe hai. Mera dimag me dusra calculation chal raha hai. Ab mujhe laga ki shayad is baat se maa dukhi hai aur mujhse shayad naraj bhi hai. Main mann me socha ki agar unka khushi ke liye mujhe shadi na bhi karna pade, to mujhe koi khed nahi hai. Unko zindagi bhar khush rakhna chahta hun.
Nanaji fir bole
“Dekho bete ..tumhara life me koi ake tumhare pass khade ho jaye, tumhara har emotion sahi tarah se share kar le, har chadhai utrai me tumhara sath rehke zindagi ka rahon me chalna asan kar de. Is liye sab ke life me biwi ka jroorat padta hai.”
Mann me jo soch raha tha tension ke sath, shayad us ka chhap mere face pe nazar aya tha. Is liye nana nani has pade. Nanaji age bolete rahe
” Humne aaj tak tumahara sab bhala bura soch ke hi kaam kiya. Ab yeh last duty bhi thik se puri ho jaye to chain se mar sakta hun.”
Main maa ka baat soch ke bolne laga
” Nanaji….aap ka baat thik hai… Lekin …….”
Main ruk gaya. Mujhe pehle maa se janna hai , kya is baat ko leke woh dukhi hai !!. Is liye mujhe gussa hoke mere se dur hai!! Lekin nanaji shayad mera dwidha samjh gaye aur mera baat pakad ke bole
” Beta pehle main jo bol raha hun ..pura sun lo. Fir tum aram se soch samajh ke mujhe batana. Agar tum ko lage ki yeh hamara sab ka bhalai ke liye hai, to waise soch ke batana, nahi to jo mann me decide karoge ,waise hi batana. Koi pressure nahi tumhare upar. “
Yeh bolke nanaji naniji ko dekhe. Naniji bhi sahmat hoke apna sar hilake mujhe aswas dilaya.
Nanaji fir se bolna suru kiya
” Beta…hum tum ko sab cheez diya bachpan se, jo har koi bachcha ko milta hai, lekin ek cheez kabhi nahi de paya”
Main nanaji ke taraf dekh ke sunne laga.
” Har bachche ka nseeb me kisiko ‘papa’ kehke bulane ka sukh hai, woh hum kabhi tumhe prapt karne ka saubhagya nahi de paya. Aur ab tumhara shadi ho jaye to tum ko ek naye mummy papa bhi milega.”
Fir nanaji thoda age ake , mera hath apna hath ke andar leke, dusri hath se mere hath ko do bar thap thapaya. Aur ek mulayem sneh bhara awaz se mujhe dekh ke bolne lage
” Hum sab ka bhalai soch ke hi yeh sab kar raha hun………agar tum ko bolun…matlab…kya tum mujhe ‘papa’ bolke bulana pasand karoge?”
Bolke mere ankhon me ankh milake dekhne laga. Mujhe is baat ko samjhne me kuchh pal lag gaya. Jaise hi is ka matlab mujhe samajh me aya, tabhi mera sarir me ek anjana anubhuti failne laga. Main fir bhi confirm hone ke liye , gale me uska asar padne na deke, puchha
” Matlab aap kya kehna chahte hai nanaji ?”
Nanaji straight bolne lage
” Beta ab main tumhara nana banke nahi, ek beti ka baap banke tumse yeh puchh raha hun ki kya tum mera beti ka hath thamoge?”
Ab mera andar ek ajeeb sa, ek adbhut sa feelings hone laga. Jo main bayan nahi kar sakta. Main keval bola
” Yeh…yeh….aap kya…kya keh rahe hai nanaji……”
“Hum bahut..bahut soch majhne ke baad yeh baat tumko bolne ka sahas kiya”
Main apne aap ko controll karte hue kaha
“But…but….yeh kaise hota…..kaise mumkin hai……”
” Agar hum chahe to sab ho sakta hai beta”
Mera maa ka chehra mere nazar ke samne aya. Main sochne laga ki yeh sab baat sunne ke baad main maa se kaise face karunga ab. Aur nana nani mere se khulke aise baat kar rahe hai ki mujhe ek sharam, na jane kya , mujh me chha ne laga. Main mola
” Nanaji hum kaise aise kar sakte hai….na ki kahin…kabhi aisa hua!!”
Nanaji shant awaz se kaha
“Beta…main aur tumhara nani is bare me socha..humsab ka khushi ke liye hum kuchh bhi sehne ke liye taiyar hai. Hum bas chahte hai ki hamara beti aur hamara pota zindagi me hamesha khush rahe…”
Fir thoda ruk ke bole
” Aur…aur tumaha maa bhi is rishte ke liye raaji hai.”
Main chonk gaya. Kya maa bhi janti hai yeh sab!! Kya is liye woh mere samne nahi arahi hai!! Is liye phone pe thik se baat nahi kar payi!! Aur to aur unhone is rishte ko apnane ke liye bhi manjuri de di.. Mera spine kapad ke ek thandi shital but dil me kampan dene wali ek anubhuti dhere dhere neeche jake pura sarir me fail gaya. Mera sar jhimjhim karne laga. Fir bhi main thoda ascharya aur doubt ke sath dhere se puchha
” Kya aap log maa se bhi is bare mein baat……aur…..aur unhone ….”
Bolke main chup ho gaya. Nanaji bole
” Pehle to woh hum se bahut gussa kiya. Ek dum khapha ho gayi thi. Teen din thik se baat bhi nahi ki, khana bhi nahi khayi. Din bhar room lock karke andar rehne lagi. Fir aur do din baad situation thoda sahaj hua. Manju bhi dhere dhere thoda naram hone lagi. Aur kal jab tumhara nani se Manju ka baat hua to tabhi hum jaan paye.”
Mera dimag me bahut sare soch, chinta bhar ke bhid karne laga. Main kuchh na bolke baitha tha. Nanaji bole
” Hum tum par jabardasti se hamara ichcha chadha nahi raha hun. Itna jaldi jawab dene ke jarurat nahi. Tum time leke socho. Fir batao. Jo bhi rai hoga tumhara, usko hum pyar se accept karenge”
Uss din main bahut sare chinta aur naye naye anubhuti ke sath dhere dhere nana ji ka room se nikal ke mere room me aya. Mera anupasthiti me , mera bistar ek dum fit fat banake gayi hai maa. Main zada soch bhi nahi pa raha tha. Bas jake so gaaya. Need nahi araha tha. Beech beech me ek naya uttejana se kapne laga. Jo bhavna mere mann ke andar tha, aaj woh sach much ghatne ja raha hai. Ek romanch me bund hoke ankh bandh karke pada raha. Aise kaise time chala gaya pata nahi chala. Der raat tak akela so so ke kuchh decision leneka faisla kiya. But halat aisa tha ki uss se pehle khudko halka karne ke liye pajama ke andar se apna penis nikal ke hilane laga. Penis aaj zada garam mehsus hua. Main jor se jhatka mar mar ke garam garam semen pura body me barish jaisa giraya. Mann shant hone laga kyun ki tab tak shayad mera andar anjane me koi decision ho chuka tha. Aur dhere dhere ek chain ki need ane laga.
Next day sunday. Main barabar early riser hun. Maa zadatar mera pichhe pad pad ke bachpan se yeh adat banadi hai. Maa hamesha bolti thi ki subha uthke padhai karunga toh jaldi se sab yaad reh jayega. Aise bahut sare achchi adat mere me dal diya hai maa ne. Is liye main zindagi ka raste me chalte time har pal unka presence mehsus karte aya hun. Wohi ek matra nari hai jo mera pura dil me chhaya hua hai. Shayad is liye kabhi aur koi ladki mere mann me jagah bana nahi paya.
Subha need tut te hi dekha suraj ka pehli kiran khidki se andar ake pura ghar roshni se bhar diya. Khidki se bahar ka kuchh awazen araha hai. Upar fan ghum rahi hai full speed me, fir bhi garmi ja nahi raha hai. Lekin yeh sab ke alva mere dil me ek thandi sheetal anubhuti mehsus kar raha hun, jo mera pura badan ko ek nasheli abesh me bharke rakha. Kal raat nanaji naniji jo baat kahi hai, ho sakta hai woh is duniya me aisa hota nahi hai. Samaj us cheez ko manyata deta nahi hai. But hamara ghar me sab..yani ki nana, nani aur maa…sabka is me sehmat hai. Sab hamara khud ka bhalai ke liye hi yeh chahta hai. Aur uske liye jo bhi badha ka sammukhin hona parega, jo sankat sanme ake khada hoga, jo sacrifice karna parega, woh log sab kuchh sehne ke liye, tackle karne ke liye bhi taiyar hai. Toh bahar ka duniya ke bare me kya sochna hai !! Aur maa bhi ek nari hai. Unke andar jo aurat hai, woh sundar aurat ko main pichhla 6 saal se, ek kalpana ka duniya banake, apnahi andar chhupake rakh ke pyar karte araha hun. Ball ab mere court me hai. Agar main chahun to woh komal dil ki nazuk aurat zindagi bharke liye mera ho sakti hai isi vastav duniya me, mera jeevansathi ban sakti hai, mera biwi ban sakti hai, mera bachchon ka maa ban sakti hai. Ek khushi ka abesh me main aankh mund ke bistar par pada raha. Tabhi darwaza khat khatake nanaji naste ke liye bulaya.
Ab yeh abtak ka mera zindagi ka sabse kathin samay hai. Aisa ek paristhiti hua hai, jahan har koi ek secret ko janliya. Aur upar se inme se koi bhi ek insan yeh bhi janta hai ki yeh secret baki sab ko bhi malum hai. Fir bhi koi kuchh nahi bol paraha hai is bishay me. Sab pehle jaisa rehne ka, bolne ka koshis kar raha hai, but andar hi andar na je kya ek cheez sab ko ek dusre se thoda alag kar ke rakh raha hai. Khali ek hi difference hai. Hum charon me se, keval maa sab ka nazar chhupake reh rahi hai. Specially mera. Nasta table me bhi kal raat jaisa sthiti tha. Maa kitchen se Nani ke hath se khana bhej rahi hai. Aaj keval sab log thoda kam bol rahe hai.
Pura din aise hi kat te raha. Nana nani se main comfortable hone ka koshish kia. Fir bhi dimag ka ek hissa sab kuch normal banane me rok raha hai. Woh log bhi apas me baat kar rahe hai lekin dheere dheere, kabhi kabhi mere se dur rehke ya mera nazar ke bahar. But sab kuch main mehsus kar paraha tha. Drawing room me zada tar time bitane laga. Is liye maa bhi nazar nahi aya. Kyun ki main samajh gaya maa keval apni room aur kitchen me hi ana jana kar rahi hai pichhe ka barandah se. So woh mere samne ane me hichkicha rahi hai. shayad sharam unko ghirke rakha hai.
Main hamesha ki tarah sunday raat ko nikal pada station jane ke liye . Main raat ko travel karta tha MP jane ke liye. Kyun ki raat me main sote sote MP pahuch jata tha. Is me need bhi ho jata aur time bhi manage ho jata. Har bar ki tarah is bar sab kuchh pehle jaise nahi hua. Is baar main chup chap nikal ne ka taiyari karne laga. Nana Nani bhi muh pe smile leke chup chap khade hai. Nani ka pair chhute hi unhone silently mujhe gale laga liya. Aur kuchh pal aise hi woh pakad ke rakhe. Jaise unhone mujhe koi sahara de rahe hai. Mera andar ka soch ko ek param mamta se bhar de raha hai. Jab unhone mujhe chhoda tab ek Maa ki sneh bhara awaz se boli ” apna khyal rakhna”. Main silently sar hilaya. Nanaji mera nazdik ake unka right hand mera pith me rakh ke thap thapa dia. Main unka pair chhune gaya to unho ne situation easy karne ke liye kaha ” kya bhai…apna Hitesh itna bade office me inta bada bada kaam kar raha hai, ab woh bachcha nahi hai. Woh ab apna zindagi ka bhalai burai khud hi soch sakta hai….” . Fir mujhe dekh ke kaha ” Hai ki nahi ?” . Main silently smile deke mera bag uthane laga. Mera mann bahut chah raha tha ki main ek bar Maa se milke jaun. Lekin kal raat se main khud unke samne jaa nahi paraha hun jidd ke liye nahi, ek hesitation ghir ke rakha hai mujhe. Ek sharam mujhe dur karke rakha ha unse. Chah kar bhi mera kadam uthake unke samne ja nahi pa raha hoon. Shayad yeh is liye ki main mere se zada unko embarrass nahi karna chahta tha ek ajeeb paristhiti me unko dalke. Aise situation me unko nahi dalna chahta tha jahan woh sharam aur glani me khud ko dukh pahuchaye. Tabhi bhi main jane se pehla unka ek jhalak dekhna chah raha tha. Darwaja se nikal ke pichhe mudke nana nani ko ‘bye’ bolte time , unka nazar churake andar ke taraf dekha tha. Mann soch raha tha , shayad woh wahan kahin khadi hogi. But main niras hoke nikal gaye.
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Office me kaam ka pressure tha. Main puri dum lagake kaam pe lag gaya.
Fir bhi hamesha woh baat mera mann me rehta tha. Puri haptah main is ko leke sochta raha. Office me ya site visit ke time bhi mann me woh baat ajati thi. Jab bhi uss bare me main thoda gaur se sochta tha, tab khushi ka ek abesh mujhe pakad leta tha. Puri hapta main aise hi ek khushi aur ek tension me guajar te raha.
Main wapas ane ke baad Maa ko bhi phone nahi karta tha. Jab bhi main phone karne ke liye sochta tha, mujhe ek sharam aur ek anjan anubhuti ghirke rehta tha. Naniji ek bar phone karke mera haal puchhe the. Bas…aur na unlogon ne, na main…hum koi kisise baat nahi kar rahe the.
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Aise dheere dheere sab kuchh soch ke, sab dik vichar kar ke, mera mann me ek roshnai paida hote raha. Mera dil bhi ab ek puccka decision me pahuch gaye. Aur jaise hi mera dimag us decision ko accept kiya, tabhi se mere andar ek anand aur sukh ka anubhuti faila hua hai. Main hesitation se bahar ake mera decision Nanaji ko batane chaha.
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Akhir us friday me, dinner ke baad main nanaji ko ph lagaya. Nanaji ph utha ke bole
”Hello.”
Main turant kuchh bol nahi paya. Kuchh pal baad bola
”Hello Nanaji..aap log so to nahi gaye?”
”Nahi nahi beta…. Soya nahi..bas sone ka taiyari kar raha hun”
Mere dimag me bahut kuchh chal raha hai. Kaise kya kahun woh thik se muh pe nahi araha hai. Main jabab me keval ”oh achcha..” Hi bol paya. Fir mera chuppi dekh ke Nanaji bhi baat dhund ne laga aur bola
”Tum kaise ho beta?”
”Main thik hun”
“Dinner ho gaya tumhara?”
“Haan ji….”
Fir se chuppi chha gaya. Aaj hazaron badha, hazaron chinta, hazaron anubhuti mera dil ke uppar bhari hoke baitha hua hai. But mujhe aaj woh sabkuchh todke, sab badha hatake bolna hai jo main bolne ke liye phone kiya. Mera is tarah khamoshi dekhke Nanaji puchhe
”Hitesh…beta tum…. kuchh kehna chahoge?”
Main ne jaise hi jawab me ” hmmm” kaha, mera badan me ek current sa khel gaya. Pura sarir kapne laga. Khud ko control karte hue maine kaha
” Nanaji,…..aap log mujhse bahut bade hai. Aur hamesha se mera bhalai burai sochte arahe hai……”
Fir main ruk gaya. Baat sajane laga mann me. But main samajh gaya Nanaji bahut dhyan se bilkul silent hoke sunne laga. Shayad woh mera khamoshi ka bhasha bhi padne ka koshish kar rahe the. Main fir bolne laga
”Agar….agar….app logon ko lagta hai ki …..is me hi sab ka achchai hai……is me sab khush rahenge ……. aur ……. aur ….. Maa bhi is se sehmat hai ……… to …. …..”
Main ruk gaya. Yeh batane ke baad ek khsuhi aur ek abdhut feelings mera pura sarir ka khoon me daurne laga. Nanaji awaz me thoda hasi milake achanak bole
” Main samajh gaya beta. Tum bilkul chinta mat karo. Sab thik ho jayega.
Tum bas kal ajao . Baki batein ghar pe baith ke karenge”
Us raat mujhe na koi tasvir, na koi mann gadan duniya ka jarurat pada. Main apne hi bed pe lete lete anewala kal me jo honewala hai, woh soch ke bilkul excited ho gaya. Itna din jo cheez keval mera mann ke andar ek chhota kamra me rakha hua hai. Aaj achanak woh cheez is bahar ki vastav duniya me sach hone ja raha hai. Mera room ka blue night lamp ki roshni charon taraf faila hua hai. Main yeh sab soch ke mera pajama ka nada khola. Already mera penis uska anewala samay ko mehsus karke khud hi khushi se fus raha tha. Main pura muththi se usko pakadke dhere dhere sehlane laga. Aankh bandh karte hi mera Maa mera nazar ke samne apni jhuki hui nazar se khadi hai. Main aur uttejit ho gaya yeh soch ke ki yeh khoobsurat aurat kuchh dinon me bas mera hi hone wala hai. Mera biwi bannewali hai. Mera penis ka cap is soch me aur ful gaya. Main tezi se hilane laga. Aur maa ka gale me mera diya hua mangalsutra aur mang me mera naam ka sindoor kalpana karke main orgasm ke taraf pahuch gaya. Mera balls ful gaya aur semen shoot karne ke liye taiyar ho gaya. Main tezi se swas le leke keval bolne laga ‘ Maa…I love u…I love u Maa…..I love u’. Maa ka komal pussy , jisko bas kuchh din baad se keval mujhe hi access karne ka adhikar milega, usko kalpana karke uske andar mera birya chhodne ka sukh mehsus karke, mera ekdum fula hua mota penis jor jor se jhatak ne laga aur achanak finki leke mera semen mera face, gala ,chhati sab gila karke bhar bharke nikal ne laga. Aaj pehli bar itna semen nikla ki main khud hairan ho gaya. Jab mera orgasm pura hogaya, main shanti se ankh bandh karke bed pe pada raha.
Next day saturday. Main har bar ki tarah office me morning shift me jake, bas sign karke jaldi jadli nikal gaya station ke liye. Mujhe ab ek nayi anubhuti hone laga. Mera decision ab maa bhi jaan chuki hogi. Aur ghar par sab ko malum hai ki is rishte ke liye hum dono hi manjoori de diya hai. So now main sochne laga ki ab kaise in sab ko face karunga.
Pehle ki tarah is bar bhi mujhe ghar pe warm welcome mila. But fir bhi main thoda difference mehsus karne laga. Nana Nani is tarah mujhe swagat kiya jaise main koi bahar ka aadmi hun and very respected. Main yeh soch ke thoda sharma gaya ki woh log aise kar rahe hai shayad is liye ki main kuchh din me unlogon ka damad banne ja raha hun.
Main fresh hone ke liye apna room pe gaya. Garmi ka time. So main fir se nahane chaha. Shower ke neeche khade hoke naha raha tha. Thanda paani se nahane me bahut achcha lag raha hai. Main pura badan apna hath se ragad ragad ke achcha se nahane laga. Jab mera hath mera penis chhuya, main neeche ki taraf dekha. Penis ab apna normal size me tha. Usko hath me leke socha ki bas, aur kuchh din sehlo, kalpana me tum jahan ghuske sabse aram aur shanti mehsus karte ho, woh tumko milne wala hai, puri zindagi ke liye. Yeh sochte hi penis fulne laga. Main turant usko chhod diya aur uske pass pass sab saaf safai karke shower se bahar agaya.
Ek pajama aur T-shirt pehenke room se bahar nikal tehi maa ka room ke rataf dekha. Yeh soch ke romanchit ho gaya ki mera honewali biwi mere ass pass hi ghum rahi hai. Mujhe maa se milne ka ek chahat hone laga. But ab shayad woh nani ke sath hi honge. So main sochne laga ki unse kaise, kahan thoda akele me mil paun.
Main drawing room me ake nana ji ke pass baitha ke TV news dekhne laga. Tabhi nani ji ek plate me kuchh mithai lake mere samnewali centre table pe rakhdi. Is time harbar mujhe chai milta tha. Aaj bhi wohi expect kiya tha. Achanak aaj is tatah se mithai ka plate dekhke main aisehi keh dia
” Yeh kya…. Abhi yeh mithai-fithai kaun khayega nani ji ?”
Naniji pani ka glass aram se rakhte rakhte bola
” Kyun….tum khaoge”
Main casually bola
” Arey naniji mujhe yeh mithai nahi…ab ek garam chai chahiye”
Nani mere taraf dekhke muskurake boli
” Chai bhi pilaunga. Lekin usse pehle yeh khalo. Ab yeh ghar tumhara apna ghar ke sath sath tumhara sasural bhi banne ja raha hai. So suruwat mitha khake karoge to rishtein bhi mitha rahega” bolke chehre pe ek muskurahat failake jane lagi. Main ek dum aise khullam khulla batein sunke, apne aap thoda sharmane laga. Nanaji mere taraf dekhke smile karke bola
” Kha lo”
Main is baat ko yehi samet ne keliye chup chap plate uthake khane laga aur TV ke taraf nazar tikake situation sahaj karneka koshish karne laga.
Kuchh der baad nani firse ayi aur ake nana ke pass baith gaye. Fir nanaji TV off karke mere se baat karna chalu kia. Woh log dheere dheere serious hone laga aur mujhe bahut sare cheezon me mera rai puchhne laga. Jaise ki shadi ka program kahan , kaise kiya jaye. Humara zada rishtedar kabhi nahi tha, aur jo bhi tha pichhla kuchh saalon ka na milne ka karan, sab bichhad gaye. so usme koi problem nahi hai. Problem hai hamara mahalla aur padoshi aur kuchh doston ko leke. In logon se hamme bachke sab kuchh karna parega. Is liye tay hua ki yahan nahi, aur kahin jake shadi ka program banana parega. Yani ki koi dur jagah jake, jahan humara relations wagera kisiko kuchh bhi malum nahi. Wahan jake shadi ka rasam sampanna karna parega. Tab nani ko yaad aya ki kuchh saal pehle , nana ji ka business line ka koi dost ka beti ka shadi hum sab log milke attend kiya tha mumbai me. Actually woh jagah mumbai city ke andar nahi tha. Mumbai se kuchh kilometers duri me, Mumbai-Gujrat highway ke side me ek resort me hua tha shadi. Wahan ka khas baat yeh tha ki ekdum nirala me hai woh resort aur shadi me attend karnewale sab ko rehne ka accomodation bhi provide karta hai. Sath me jo sabse mehetpurn cheez hai yani ki shadi ka rasam ka arrangement–pandit se leke registered sahab tak, sab woh log dete hai. Haan..tha woh ek bada shadi, but hamme to woh sab kuchh nahi chahiye. Khali shadi ka rasam pura karne ka bandobast, hum char logon ka rehne ka intezam. Bas aur kya. Yeh sab discussion me main thoda hesitate karne laga aur khulke baat nahi kar pa raha tha. But nana ji bole ” Arey bete yeh sab tumhara zindagi ka bahut mehtapurn cheezein hai. Is me tumko khulke age ana chahiye. Aur hum tumhare sath hai.” Tab main thoda sahaj hone laga aur nana ji se sare planning karne laga.
In sab baton ke beech mera dimag me yeh soch chal raha hai ki kaise bhi karke maa se ekbar mulakat karna hai. Mujhe yeh bhi malum tha ki maa se aise asani se mulakat nahi ho payega. Woh janbujh ke mujhse dur reh rahi hai. Bilkul koi mauka nahi derahi hai amne samne aneka. Iss liye main unka chehra thik se dekh bhi nahi pa raha hun. But nana ji se baat karte karte hi mera dimag me ek jhalak sa aya. Mujhe ek hi raat ghar pe rukh ne ko milta hai. Dusri raat me yani ki sunday raat ko main nikal jata hun MP ke liye. So mujhe aaj raat me hi maa se milna hai. Ekant me. Itna sab kuchh batein ho raha hai. Shadi ka planning tak suru ho gaya. Aur abhi tak dulha se dulhan ka ek baar baat bhi nahi ho paya. Mujhe ek bar unse baat karna hai.
Dinner table pe shadi wagera leke koi baat nahi hua. Bas main jo khana pasand karta hun , wohi cheeein nani ji mujhe zada zada de rahe hai. Main janta tha yeh sab maa ne mere liye hi banaya. Aaj woh samne ane me sharma rahi hai, is liye nani ka hathon se sab bar bar dene bhej rahi hai. Main mana kar raha hun , but nani ji keval “tumhare liyehi banai gayi hai. Kyun nahi khaoge?” Aur fir mere taraf dekhke, ek muskurahat leke boli
” Bas aur kuchh din….. Nani ka hath ka khana kha lo… Fir to tumhe saas ka hath ka khana khana parega.” Bolke thoda has ke kitchen ke taraf chali gayi. Nana ji bhi is baat se hasne lage. Main sharam ke mare andar ghuse jaraha tha.
Main dinner ke baad nana ji ke room me baithke baat kar raha tha. Nanaji pochhe ki MP me mujhe ab naya ghar pe shift karna hai ki us ghar ko rakhna hai, maine bataya ki is ghar hi filhal thik hai . Kafi bada ghar hi to hai. Nani ji bolne lagi ki ab to main akela tha, sab chal jata tha. Lekin ab family rahega. Haan..hoga woh bahut chhota family, keval pati patni ka, fir bhi family hi hai. So uske liye sare saman ka bhi bandobast karna padega. Main ne bola ki us baat pe koi chinta nahi. Woh sab main khud hi sambhal sakta hun. To fir keval yeh samne aya ki Mumbai wali resort aur shadi ko leke hi jo bhi kuchh chinta hai. Nana ji ne kaha ki thik hai, tumhara ab to office bhi hai. Site supervision bhi hai. Toh tum MP me rehneka sab intezam ko dekho. Aur main resort wagera final karta hun. Lekin us se pehle shadi ka ek shubh din, shubh muhurat bhi dhundna hai. Jab yeh sab batein ho raha tha, tab mere dimag me aur kuchh chal raha tha. Agar woh cheez miss hogaya to shayad maa se milna na-mumkin ho jayega. Main fatafat discussion ko end karke nana ji ka room se bahar agaya. Aur jaisehi main drawing room ke taraf jane laga tab mujhe mere room ka light on hai dikhai diya. Mera chhati me jhat se ek aisa feelings hua ki jaise mera chhati se kuchh nikal ne laga aur achanak mera body halka sa ho gaya.
Main dheere se apni room ke taraf chalne laga. Mujhe malum tha jab main nahi rahunga tab maa ake mera bistar thik karke jayenge. Aur is liye main dinner karke nanaji ke room me jake woh mauke ka intezar kar raha tha. Jinta najdik ja raha tha , utnahi nervous bhi ho raha tha. Ek ajeeb anubhuti bhi ho raha tha aur ek nasha bhi. Maa ko face karne ke baad kya hoga, woh pata nahi tha. Unko dekh ke main kaise react karunga ya woh kaise react karengi, yeh sab anjana tha. Fir bhi main unko ekbar samne se dekhna chahta hun. Baat karna chahta hun.
Main door ke pass jatehi woh mera presence feel kar liya. Woh mere taraf pith karke , thoda jhuk ke, machchar dani sahi se charon taraf se bistar ke side me gonj rahe the. Main atehi woh achanak woh sab band karke khade ho gaye. Unka full back side mere taraf hai. Ek halki yellow color ki printed saree aur matching blouse pehni hui thi. Blouse ke upar gori gori, cream jaisa mulayam, sudhoul gardan aur pith ke upper portion nazar arahe the. Baal carelessly ek juda bandhke rakha hai. Unki body curve dhalan leke dono side se ake unke patli kamar me mil gaya. Unke nitamb ke upar se saree tight hoke bandha hua hai. Usse woh aur bhi ubhar ke samne agaya. Aaj tak jo cheez mera fantasy duniya me hota tha, aaj pehli baar yeh hua ki unko dekhke unke samne hi, pajama ke andar mera penis kathin hone laga. Unhone unka right hand se palank ka stand pakadke sthir ho gayi. Yeh sab kuchh, kuchh din se jo ho raha hai, unsab ke beech aaj pehli baar main maa ko ekant me mere nazdik paya. Unko ussi tarah sar jhukake khadi hode dekh ke achanak mere andar ka sab nervousness dhere dhere gayeb hone laga aur ek ajeeb madhosi mere me chhane laga. Jo anubhuti aur pyar main unke liye pichhle 6 saal se chhupake rakha tha, aaj woh pyar, woh anubhuti pehli bar mere dil me is vastav duniya me ane laga. Din bhar bahut kuchh socha tha maa ko leke, lekin ab jab woh samne khadi hai to main sab kuchh bhul gaya . Keval mere chhati me wahi pani ka tarang jaise kuchh behne laga. Main room ke andar aya. Woh apna right hand ka thumb nail se palank ka stand ke uppar rub karne laga. Main unko dekhte hue kaha
“Maa……actually…..matlab…….main tumse sach much bahut pyar karta hun”
Yeh suntehi maa shayad thoda kaanp uthi. Fir khud ko control karke wahan khadi rahi. Mujhe unka chehra dekhna ka bahut mann kia. Main dheere dheere chalke mera study table ke pass gaya. Wahan se unka side profile nazar araha tha. Unke chehra pe sharam chhaya hua hai. Nazar jhuki hui hai pairon ki ungliyan ke taraf. Yahan se mujhe unka pet ka kuchh hissa nazar araha hai. Ek dum flat hai. Main us taraf dekh ke sochne laga ki us pet ke andar hi ekdin mera bachcha ayega. Main yeh soch ke aur bhi romanchit ho gaya aur pajama ke andar mera saman ekdun shakt ho gaya. Jaise hi main door chhodke andar aya aur chup chap yeh sab sochne laga, unhone phat se mudke , mere taraf back karke , tezi se ghar se nikal gayi. Main unka jana dekhne laga. Aisi ek sundar aurat, jisko main pyar bhi karta hun, respect bhi karta hun, chahta bhi hun, unke sath hi main pura zindagi bitane wala hun. Yeh soch ke mann me khushi chha gaya.
Us raat main aankh bandh karke maa ka kiya hua bistar me so so ke unka sparsh mehsus kar raha tha. Lag raha tha jaise woh mere ekdum pass, ek dum kareeb hai. Bas kuchh din ka faisla hai. Fir woh sundar, naram, pyari aurat, har raat mera bahon me rahenge aur main unko bahut pyar karunga. Main unko kabhi kuchh bhi dukh mehsus karne nahi dunga. Hamesha unke muskurati hui chehra dekhna chahta hun. Main ek achcha pati ka dharm nibhate huye duniya ka har khushi unke samne lake dunga. Unka tann mann me hamesha anand deke rahunga. Main in sab baton se garam hogaya tha. Fir bhi mann hi mann kasam khaya ki aaj se mera tann mann ka har khushi bhi unke sath hi share karunga. So us raat main masturbate karke akela woh sukh lena nahi chah raha tha. Main sab kuchh bas unke sath hi karna chahta hun. Aur main hamara suhagraat me unko paripurn santusti dena chahta hun.
Aur mera aankh me need kab ake mujhe ek khushi ka sagar me behke leke gaya, woh mujhe pata nahi chala.
Raat ko der need ane ke karan subha uthne me late ho gaya. Mobile ka ringing se need tut gaya. Office ka ek senior colleague ka phone. Woh kuchh urgent kaam ke liye kal chhutti le raha hai. Isliye woh kal site pe ja nahi payenge, so mujhe jane ke liye kaha. Main jaise hi unko confirm kiya woh mujhe thanks bole. Aur do char idhar udhar ka baat karke phone cut dia. Main fatafat bistar se nikal ke bathroom jake fresh hone laga. Mere andar office ka batein chal raha tha. Jab main mirror ke samne khade hoke daant brush kar raha tha tab khud ko mirror pe dekh raha tha. Achanak dimag me aya, arey main shadi kar raha hun aur chup chap shadi karke jab biwi leke MP pahuchenge tab to office me sab ko pata chalega. Tab sab ko kaise tackle karunga? Fir socha ki thik hai jab hoga tab dekha jayega. But in sab baton se zada mera dimag me kaal raat ke baare mein yaad aya. Kal mujhe maa mili thi woh bhi ekant me. Mujhe unse bahut kuchh batana tha, bahut kuchh puchhna bhi tha, but woh jab samne ayi, main sab kuchh bhul gaya. Din bhar kitna kuchh sochke rakha tha, but unke samne ake kuchh nahi ho paya. Main ek adbhut feelings me ajata hun aur sab gadbad kar deta hun. Main samjh gaya ki mere mann ka ekdum andar jo ek turmoil pichhla teen-char din se chal raha hai , yeh usi ka phal hai. Haan….yeh baat sahi hai ki ek ladki ke liye ek ladke ka mann me jaisa pyar hota hai, unke liye mere mann me woh pyar hai. But jinko bachpan se maa ke roop me dekh ke araha hun, ab unko biwi ke roop me dekhna padega. Purana rishta bhul kar ab naye rishte mein kadam rakhna hai. Jab woh samne nahi hai, tab mann yeh sab maan ke chalta hai. But ab jab woh samne agayi tab pata chala ki mujhe vastav duniya me unke sath woh nayi rishta apnane ke liye mere andar ka bahut sare bhavnayen aur hesitation ke dur karna parega. Main mann me jor lane laga. Aaj wapas jane se pehle unse aur ek mulakat hota to dil ko thoda sukun milta. But main yeh bhi janta hun ki iska chances bahut hi kam hai.
Main jab drawing room me aya , wahan nana nani ke sath maa kuchh baat kar rahi thi. Sab ka body posture se samajh ata hai ki koi serious baat nahi, aise hi baat chit kar rahi hai. But jaise hi main drawing me entry liya woh ankh uthake ekbar mujhe dekh liya aur jaldi se sharma ke fir se nani ke taraf dekh ke kuchh boli aur turant wahan se jane lagi. Aur kitchen ke taraf door se nikal gayi. Main samjh gaya maa bhi mere jaise situation me hai. Shayad unka bhi mann chah raha hoga ki woh mujhse mile , batein kare, but unki andar ka bhavnayen aur hesitation woh sab karne me rok laga raha hai. Unko bhi mere tarah khud se jujhna pad raha hoga. Ab tak jo unka beta tha, apna khun tha, jisko bachpan se pal posh ke ek najawan ladka banayi, jisko maa ka mamta , pyar aur sneh deke bada kiya hai, us najawan ladka ko ab unka pati ka roop me maan na padega. Usko pati ka adhikar dena padega. Apna tann mann usko sonp na padega. Ek nayi pavitra rishte me usse judna padega. Lekin unko dekh ke yeh pata chalta hai ki woh bhi jaroor yeh sab soch aur hesitation se nikalne ka koshish kar raha hai. Kyun ki unke nazar me, unke chalan me, aur unke gesture me saaf saaf pata chalta hai ki woh ab ek maa ki tarah nahi, ek akeli dukhi aurat ki tarah nahi, valki woh khud ko ek ladki ke tarah mehsus kar rahi hai. Jiss ka abhi shadi honewali hai aur woh apna honewali pati se sharma rahi hai.
Nanaji nasta ke baad nikal gaye panditji se milne. Shadi ka shubh din, shubh muhurat janne ke liye. Woh hamara jan-pehchan logon se dur, Ahmedabaad city me jake koi achcha pandit ji se milnewale hai. Is liye unko wapas ane me time bhi lag raha hai. Main drawing room me baith ke TV dekh raha tha. Lekin mera mann fut raha tha maa ke sath baith ke baat karne ke liye, unki khubsoorat chehra apni hathon se pakad ke, ankhon me ankh dalke dekhne ka chahat me. But yeh sambhav nahi ho paraha hai. Halaki hum sab jante hai ki yeh rishta ke liye dono hi raji hai, aur bas kuchh hi dinon me hum pati patni ka pabitra bandhan me judnee ja rahe hai. Lekin main ab itna besharam bhi ban nahi pa raha hun ki nani ke samne hi maa ke sath yeh sab karun. Nani maa ko kitchen me akela chhodke ake mera side me rakha sofa chair me baithe. Fir woh mere se baat karne lagi. Main TV off karke unke taraf ghuma aur unka baat sunne laga. Woh mujhe wahi sab kal raat wali baat puchhte rahi. Mumbai me jo resort me shadi hoga, usme booking kitna din pehle lena padta hai. Ab to shadi ka season anewala hai. Agar sab booked hai to kya karenge. Yehi sab sawal jawab chal raha tha. But mera mann kitchen me jahan maa akeli khana bana rahi hai, wahan pada hai. Nani bahut seriously batein kar rahi hai. Mere sath maa ka is nayi rishta se nani ji bahut khush hai. Unka ek laute beti ka zindagi keval dukh se bhara hai. Ab zindagi unko ek dusri mauka de raha hai khushi se, shanti se jeene ke liye. Pati ka pyar ke sath, ek nayi family banake zindagi jeene ka ek sapna pura hone ja raha hai. Nani ji bhavuk ho gayi. Unka aankh gila hone laga. Woh jhuk ke mera hath unke hath ke andar pakad ke kehne lagi
“Beta , main tum dono ko mera dil bharke ashirwad karta hun. Tum log ek dusre ko zindagu bhar pyar karte rehne. Hasi, khshi, anand aur shati ke sath jeete rehna. Apni family, apni bachchon ke sath ek naya duniya banake khush rehna. ….”
Nani ka annkh me paani bharne laga. “Beta, hamara sab ka bhalai ke liye, tumhara apna family ke liye, tum ne aaj jo kar rahe ho, is ke liye main kaise tumhaha……”
Nani aur bol nahi payi. Unka gala bandh hone aya. Bas woh mere taraf ek pyar aur mamta bhara, kritagyata ke nazar se dekh rahi hai. Main bhi bhavuk ho gaya. Main unke hath mera muththi me leke , thoda dabake mera acknowledge jataya aur bola
” Nani ji…aap bilkul pareshan mat hoiye. Aap ka beti ko main khush rakhunga. Aur hum sab milke khush rahenge”
Nani ji ka hoth pe ek muskurahat ane laga. Aur fir thoda haske mera gaal pe pyar se ek halka sa chata marke boli
” Pagal ladka…mujhe ab nani kuyn !!!….mummy to bol”
Woh hasne lagi aur main sharam me duba ja raha tha.
Lunch ke time situation kuchh aur tha. Nanaji panditji se milke ake carelessly apna shirt khol ke unka bed room me kursi ke upar rakh diya tha. Jab nanaji nahane gaya tha tab nani us shirt ko hanger me dalke tangne gaya. Aur tabhi shirt ki pocket se ek packet cigarette mila. Nanaji nani se chhupa ke yeh sab karta hai. But aaj galti se yeh bhul gaya woh. Aur pakda gaya. Aur tab se nani nanaji ko datna suru kar diya. Aise toh woh bolti bahut zada, upar se aaj yeh point milgaya aur bhi bolne ke liye. Nanaji chup chap chor jaise table me baithke khana kha raha tha. Main bhi zada interfare na karke khane laga. Nani jab nana ko dat te hai, tab jo bhi nana ko support karega, usko nani se reham nahi milega. Bachpan se yehi dekh te aya. Main khana kha raha tha aur beech beech me ankh uthake un dono ko dekh raha tha. Achanak mera nazar unlogon ke pechhe kitchen door pe pada. Main dekha ki maa kitchen door ke pichhe chhupke straight mujhe gaur se dekh rahi hai. Unka ankh me jo khushi ka jhalak tha , aur hothon pe pyar bhari muskan, woh mujhe dikh gaya. But jaise hi unke sath mera nazar mila , woh jhat se andar chup gayi. Jaise koi teenage girl apni premi ko dekh ke sharam se chhupte hai. Mere chhati me paani ka tarang jaisa koi ek anubhuti mera dil ke andar jake dil ko chhune laga. Main nana nani ka is jhagde ka beech me baithke bhi ek sukhanubhuti se bund hoke khane laga.
Main jaldi me tha. Subha se site pe jake supervise karna hai. Isliye us din early nikalne laga ghar se. Main zada kuchh carry nahi karta tha. Ek chhota racksack bag me apna necessary kuchh cheezen leke chalta hun. Main woh sab cheezen bag me bharke study table ke pass chair par rakh diya. Ek jeans aur polo T-shirt pehenke bahar drawing me ake chai pee raha tha aur nana ji se last minute discussion kar raha tha. Nani bhi the. Achnak kitchen se maa ka awaz ayi aur naki ko kitchen me bulaya. Kuchh hi der me nani kapre ka ek chhota bag me tiffin box bharke leke ayi aur mujhe thama diya. In logon ka, specially maa ka pyar ka yeh torture har bar mujhe sehna padta hai. Raat me train me khane ke liye mujhe le jana padta hai. Main ghar se carry karke leke jana nahi chahta hun, fir bhi insab ko main dukh nahi dena chahta hun.
Nana nani drawing me baitha hai. Mera jane ka time ho gaya. Main uthke apna room ke taraf chala bag leke ane ke liye. Mera dimag me bahut kuchh chal raha tha. Main mera room me entry karke jaise hi study table ke taraf right muda, main chaunk gaya. Study table ke pass wall pe pith tikake maa khadi hai. Mera nazar unse tika hua hai. Unke aankh me pehli bar dikhai diya woh pyar jo ek ladka ke liye ek ladki ke mann me hota hai, ek premi ke liye unke premika ke dil me hota hai. Unki gulabi hoth pe ek muskurahat jhilik mar raha hai. Sath hi sath unka do patli hoth ek adbhut abesh me thoda thoda kap rahi hai. Pura chehra sharam se lal ho gaya hai. Main unse nazar milake dekhe ja raha hun aur andar hi andar bahut kuchh bole ja raha hun. But ek bhi baat muh tak aya nahi. Nahi kuch kar pa raha hun. Achanak woh nazar jhuka li. Mera nazar neeche kartehi unka gale ke neeche chhati par aur makhkhan jaise mulayem cleavage area me ake tik gaya. Mera penis jeans ke andar chhat fat karna suru kardiya. Aur tabhi maa daurke ake mere chhati pe unka muh gonj diya aur dono hath pichhe le jake pith ke upar rakhke mujhe kaske pakad liya. Unka pura sarir mere sarir me chipka hua hai. Pehli bar is tarah mujhe hug kiya unhone. Ek maa jaisa nahi, ek nayi naveli biwi jaisa mujhe pakad ke rakha. Unka naram naram boobs mera chhati ke uppar chipka hua hai. Unka groin area mera thai ke sath chipka hua hai. Unka flat pet mera groin area ke sath chipka hua hai. Woh mera tana hua penis ko mera jeans ke upar se apni pet me mehsus kiya hoga. Main unka balon me mera muh ghusa ke, unko apna dono hathon se pakad ke aur jor se mere sath chipkane laga. Hum koi kuchh bol nahi rahe the, keval ek dusre ko mehsus kar rahe the. Aise karke mujhe jo kehna tha, woh keh diya aur mujhe jo kuchh puchh na tha, unka jawab bhi mil gaya. Achanak unka grip loose ho gaya aur woh apna chehra mera chhati se alag karne ka sanket diya. Main mera pakad chhod diya. Unhone mere se thoda alag hoke mere samne bas kuchh moments khadi rahi nazar neeche karke, fir teji se daur ke apni room me chali gayi.
Mujhe wahan khade khade unka jane ka disha me dekhte dekhte mehsus hone laga ki alge 16 din….bas ab 16 din nahi, valki 16 saal jaisa lagne laga. Nanaji panditji se shadi ka date pata karke aya hai. Woh shubh muhurat aaj se 16 din baad hai.
Ab halat aisa hai ki itna kuchh hone ke baad ab 16 din rehenge kaise. Ab mujhe ek bhi pal unko chodke rehne ka mann nahi karta.
But haan…tab mujhe pata nahi tha ki in 16 dinon me bahut kuchh hoga, bahut kuchh milega humme, jo humara agee ka zindagi jeene ka rasta sahaj kar dega. Aur sath me mujhe ek naya cheez bhi milega, jo aaj tak mera naseeb nahi hua. Kuchh din ke liye mujhe apna hi honewali biwi ke sath chhup chhup ke pyar karne ka mauka bhi mil gaya tha.
Next day raat 10 baje mera need tuta. Main office ka kapde me hi hun abhi tak. Need tutne ke baad so so ke kuchh time main confused tha. Samajh nahi araha tha main kahan hun aur ab kya hai–morning ya raat!! Aur aise kaise ho gaya!! Initial disorientation kat ne ke baad main hosh me aya.
Actually aaj subha MP pahuchke ,jaldi jaldi fresh hoke daur lagaya site ke taraf. Office ka gadi tha mujhe pahuchane ke liye. Main woh leke jab site pahucha tab sab mere liye hi wait kar raha tha. Bridge construction chal raha hai. Ek taraf ka entry pura hone ja raha hai , toh usse supervise karke dekhna pad raha tha planning aur design ke motabit sab barabar ja raha hai ki nahi. Main is kaam me naya hun. But kuchh kaam aise hota hai jo insaan apni budhdhi, medha aur common sense laga ke jaldi pakad leta hai. Aaj ka din bahut bhari tha. Pura din site pe bitake sham ko jab wapas aya , tab body me kuchh bacha nahi tha. Ghar ake bistar pe lait gaya aur bas ab need tuta. Din bhar ka tiredness ke sath sath pichhla kuchh din se need bhi kam ho raha tha. Aaj usi ka asar eksath pad gaya.
Tej bhuk lag raha tha. Jaldi se fresh hoke ake khane gaya to fas gaya. Ab yaad aya. Jo admi tiffin supply karta hai, aaj woh din me hi phone karke bata diya tha aaj raat ko khana de nahi payega. But tab itna busy tha ki main ‘huum’, ‘haan’, ‘thik hai’ bolke cut diya tha. Aur baad me ekdum bhul gaya. Main yahan ek mohalle ke andar rehta hun. Market thoda dur hai. Office ke raste me. So ab is halat me itni raat me bahar jake khana khane ki energy nahi mila. Main kitchen me gaya. Fridge me keval anda mila. Sunday rehne ka karan na dudh na bread kuchh tha nahi. Us ande aur maggie leke banana suru kiya. Mujhe bas itna hi pakana ata hai. Kabhi maa kitchen me jane hi nahi diya. Aur bachelor life ka bharosha maggie anda se hi kabhi kabhi kaam chalata hun. But achanak mann me aya ki arey ab to mera bachelor life hi khatam hone jaraha hai. Ab to family man banne ja raha hun. kuchh hi din me mujhe fir se maa ka hath ka khana khane ka saubhagya hoga. Lekin yahan mujhe maa ka nahi, mera patni ka, shadi kiya hua biwi ka hath ka khana milega. Main maggie banate banate kal ke bare me soch raha tha. Maa ko malum tha ki main bag lene ke liye room pe jaunga. Isliye woh jaldi se nani ke hath tiffin box bhejka , fata fat pichhe ke barandah se jake mere room me chali gayi aur mera intezar karti rahi. Yeh sab soch ke mann me ek khushi ka abesh ane laga. Maa kal mujhe samjha diya ki woh hamara naya rishte ke liye ab kitna khush hai. Woh mujhe dil se chahti hai. Mujhe apna pati ke roop me pyar karna suru kiya. Yeh sab unka harkaton se aur unka nazaron se mujhe samjha dia. Woh chahti thi ki mere mann me jo duvidha, hesitation aur bahut sare sawalon ka tufan chal raha tha, main is bar MP ane se pehle woh sab clear ho jaun. So last moment me khud ake woh sab kuchh jatake gayi. Ab main unko biwi ke roop me sochu yeh barta bhi unhe samjha dia. Aaj din bhar is bare me sochne ka time hi nahi tha. But ab main unko miss karna suru kiya. Na jane kya, ab mujhe unko mera bahon me bharke, ankhon me aankh dalke unke chehre ke taraf bas dekhte rahu..bas iss khwab se mann chanchal hone laga.
Maggie ban gaya tha. Bed room me lake table par rakha aur bistar pe baithke wall pe pith tika ke ek ek chammach utha utha ke khane laga. But mann me ek tufan chalne laga. Ab mujhe maa ka sparsh pane ke liye, unka dil ki dhadkane mehsus karneke liye aur unki mithi awaz sunne ke liye mann betab ho raha tha. Main mobile liya. Now its 10.45 pm. Main mobile ko ek hath se ghuma fira raha tha aur soch raha tha ki ab itni raat ko kya jagi hogi!! Ahmedabaad ka ghar par generally hum sab 8.30 me dinner aur 9.30 me sab apna apna room me. Main fir bhi aaj mera luch try karne laga. Main mobile ka message option me jake ek sms type kiya ” mujhe abhi tumse baat karne ke liye mann chah raha hai”. Jab wapas pada, mujhe khud ko behkuf laga. Fir main kuchh time socha aur delete karke keval ‘hi’ likha. Pichhla ek hapte se unse mera koi direct conversation hua nahi. Aur ab toh situation ekdum alag hai. To main yehi sahi socha aur maa ko bhej diya. Kal maa khud ko mere pass surrender karke, mere liye unka pyar jata diya, fir bhi mera mann ka sab bhavnyen aur hesitation abhi tak puri tarah dur nahi hua. Kuchh kuchh cheezen sharam ban ke mere andar baitha hua hai. Aur main janta hun woh rahega. Ek rishte ko bhul ke dusri ek naye rishte me judne ja rahe hai hum dono. Samay ke sath sath woh naye rishte hamare beech strong hote rahega. Mujhe malum hai ki khud ko mere pass surrender karne ke baad bhi maa ko bhi time lagega sab kuchh adjust karne ke liye. Inhi sab bhavnaon ke beech mera khana ho gaya tha. But mera mann bar bar mobile pe ja raha hai. Ab tak koi reply nahi aya. Shayad woh so gaye. Main socha unko ring karun. Fir laga ki agar unko uthane me time lagega toh nana nani ko bhi woh awaz sunai dega. Nani ji insomnia patient. Raat me jaga rehte hai kabhi kabhi. Agar woh sun liya toh samajh jayenge itni raat kiska phone hai. Kyun ki maa ko zada koi phone karta nahi hai, main hi jo karta hun. Pehle hota to itni raat thik tha, lekin ab mujhe ek sharam ane laga. Main nirash hogaya. Main bowl aur spoon leke kitchen jane ke liye jaise hi utha, ek sms aya. Mera mann me ek ajeeb anubhuti fut ne lagi. Main turant sms dekha. Maa ne bheji hai. Unhone bhi keval ‘hi’ bheja. Mera hoth pe muskurahat khel gaya. Main samjh gaya woh jagi hui hai aur woh bhi mere jaise har pal bhavnayen aur khushi ka ek adbhut mishran anubhuti se ghira hua hai. Main fir se bed pe uthke baith aur god me ek takiya leke wall pe tek lagake reply karne laga. Ab jab woh mere se baat suru kar diya hai, tabhi mera sab batein andar hi andar daurne laga. Sahi shabd dhunde laga main. Kuchh na pake likh diya ‘maa tum abhi bhi jagi ho?’. Main send button dabane hi wala tha ki main ruk gaya. Aur ek bar nazar firake text ko correction kiya. ‘kya tum abhi bhi jagi ho?’ Bhej ne ke baad main mobile screen pe nazar laga ke baitha hun but dimag me aur kuchh chal raha hai. Main is bar Ahmedabaad jake bhi unko maa keh ke bula raha tha. But kal ke baad mujhe laga ki mujhe ab jaldi puri tarah se naye rishte ko apnana padega. Bip bip. Maa reply bheji hai ‘hmmm’ bolke. Shayad unko is sawal ka jawab dene me sharam aya hoga. Kyun ki utna likhne me bahut time laga di. Mera mann khushi se bhar raha hai. Abhi bhi jagi hai !! Shayad woh bhi unke andar ka jo uncomfortable cheezen hai, woh sab ko soch ke, uska todmod karke kuchh solution nikal ne ka koshish kar rahe honge. Mera dono hath ka thumb ab mera mobile key pad ke uppar nach raha hai. Mann me tufan aur dimag me hesitation. Samajh nahi aya kya karun–sms karun ya direct phone lagalun. Main ne type kiya ‘kya main tum ko phone kar sakta hun?’. Pehli bar apni maa se is tarah baat kar raha hun. Aaj tak jab chahe, jahan se chahe , unko phone kiya. Na mere mann me koi hesitation , na woh kabhi kuchh kaha. Aaj hum dono zindagi ka rohaon me aisa ek mod pe khade hai, ki kuchh bhi karne se pehle, bolnese pehle mann me duvidha araha hai. Jaise hum anjan do insaan hai. Itna salon ka sab kuchh achanak badal gaya aur hum ab naap tol ke sab kuchh karne me lage hai. Lekin haan…mann yeh bhi janta hun ki main unke bare me aur woh mere bare me ab tak jinta bhi kuchh janu na kyun, ab se hum ko dusri tarikase ek dusre ko janna suru karna padega. Ab ek dusre ka dil ka darwaja, jo darwaja keval zindagi me apni jeevansathi keliye hi kholte hai, usko kholna padega. Time nikal gaya, but reply aya nahi. Shayad ab maa phone pe direct baat karne me sharma rahi hai. Main to pichhla 6 saal se unko chahte araha hun apni mann hi mann me. Ab jab hamara naseeb humme ek sath milane ja rahe hai, tab shayad main unko mera nazdik pane keliye itna betab ho raha hun. But woh to bas kuchh din se yeh sab adjust karna suru kiya hai. Main janta hun unko time ka jarurat hai. Ek roop se dusri roop me ane kke liye, apni tann mann ko apni honewala pati ke pass puri tarah sonp ne ke liye, khud ko taiyar karna pad raha hai. Main unko pati ka pyar deke, unke sath puri zindagi gujarna chahta hun. Unko duniyaka sabse zada khush patni banana chahta hun. Kabhi bhi main unko zara sa dukh nahi pauchana chahta hun. Main chahta hun ki agli sath janam tak woh mera patni banke aye. So main abhi unko unki jaisa rehne dena chahta hun. Is baat me filhal apni mann ke uppar patthar rakhke apna bowl uthake kitchen me chala. Jaisehi kitchen me pahucha bip bip awaz sunai di. Main daur ke bed room me aya aur mobile uthake check kiya. Maa reply diya ‘ok’ bolke. Fir se ek adbhut sirsirani spine pakad ke neeche chali. Mann kapne laga. Main bistar pe baithke tutant maa ko phone lagaya. Aur jaisehi ring hona chalu kiya, maa fatak se receive karli. Main unka hello ka intezar kiya. But unhone kuchh bola nahi. Lekin main unka presence mehsus kar paraha hun. Aise to raat hai, charo taraf sunsaan khali, koi awaz nahi. Mujhe unka swason ka awaz bhi sunai de raha hai. Main samajh gaya woh hai lekin bol nahi rahi hai. Mujhe ek halki halki kampan hone laga yeh sochke ki phone ke ustaraf mera honewali biwi hai. Main unka mithi awaz sunne ke liye unki bolne ka intezar kar raha tha. Asli me hum dono hi khamosh reh raha tha aur hum hamare beech ka khamoshi ka bhahsa padne ka koshish kar raha tha. But jab unke taraf se kuchh bhi nahi aya to main bola. Mere dil ki darwaja unke liye khole rakha. Isliye khud ko control karke dhundte raha ki kaise suru karun, kya puchhu. Fir main dheere se puchha
” Nanaji naniji so gaye?”
Woh kuchh time baad dheere se kahi
“Haan”
Unke mithi awaz me saaf saaf sharam jhalak raha hai. Mera mann khushi se jhum utha. Unke awaz suntehi mera mann ka sab emotion ka bandh tut pada. Fir bhi yeh sab unko mehsus karne na deke baat ghumaya aur halka hasi ke sath bola
” Maine abhi abhi dinner kiya”
Woh thoda chup ho gaye. Aur awaz me thoda concern milake puchhi
” Itna late kyun?”
Main normal rehke bolte raha
” Woh actually aaj site pe daur bhag ke wajah se tired ho gaya tha. Aur wapas ate hi so gaya tha”
Bolke thoda ruka aur jaise kuchh yaad aya, issi tarah fir se bola
” Aur aaj woh tiffinwala bhi khana nahi laya.”
Woh ruk ruk ke bol rahi hai. Main samajh raha tha ki abhi bhi sharam aur hesitation unko sahaj hone me rok raha hai. Lekin iss bar woh time na leke turant puchhi
” Kyun?”
” Pata nahi, uska kuchh kaam tha. Isliye aaj diya nahi” maine kaha.
Woh thoda time chup ho gaye. Fir thoda chintit hoke puchhi
” Toh khana kaise hua?”
Main haste haste bola
” Mujhe jo banane ata hai, wahi banaya-maggie aur anda”
Woh kuchh sochi aur boli
” Bahar hotel me to khana milta hai”
Jaise ki mera galti pakda gaya, usi tarah safai dete huye kahan
” Haan…milta to hai. But abhi..itna raat me… jane ka mann nahi kara”
Woh unki awaz me thoda sa halka gussa milake kahi
” Aise karne me tabiyat kharab ho jata hai”
Abhi bhi unka baton me maa ka pyar aur concern dikhai de raha hai. Aur yeh bhi nazar aya ki aaj achanak unhone passive voice me baat kar rahi hai. Main kya safai dun yeh sochte sochte bol diya
” Aachcha aur nahi karunga.”
Fir kya pata kaise, main bolte raha
” Aur to bas kuchh din. Uske baad to fir se hamesha tumhara hath ka hi….”
Bolke main ruk gaya. Pura nahi kar paya. Pehli bar is tarah baat nikal gaya muh se. Mujhe sharam bhi ane laga. Aise hamara shadi ke bare me hum ek dusre ko aaj tak kuchh jikar nahi kiya. So main adha adhura bolke ruk gaya. Udhar maa bhi chup ho gaye. Is baat se ek cheez hua. Woh kya ki ab tak mera aur maa ke beech hamara naye rishta ko leke jo adrishya dewar tha, woh dheere dheere girna sur hua. Mere andar wahi purani ek adbhut khushi ka jo feelings ata hai, woh mera pura badan me chhane laga. Main mera dil ka dwar pura khol ke ekdum bhabuk ho gaya. Aur unke liye mera pyar bahar nikalne laga. Mera gale se ek halka kapkapati hui awaz nikal ke bola
” I love u”
.
Jaise hi maine kaha, main phone ka uspar se maa ka ek tej swas ka awaz suna. Mujhe aisi emotion ke sath kehte hue sunke maa shayad kaap uthi hogi. Is liye kuchh time woh chup ho gayi. Hum dono hi phone pakad ke baithe hai. Jaise ki woh mera pyar ko mehsus kar rahi hai. Thoda time baad woh khud ko control karke dheere dheere apni dil ka darwaja bhi kholne lagi. Aur yeh mujhe pata chala tab, jab woh apni kapkapati awaz se fisfisake boli
” I love u too”
Maa pehli bar apna muh se mere liye pyar jataya. Aur woh sunke main khushi se pagal ho gaya. Mera khun teji se daurne laga. Aur ek ajeeb anubhuti mera dil me bharne laga. Main emotional hoke ankh band karke thoda pichhe hilke apna sar ko diwar pe tek lagaya. Jaise ki main hawa me badal ke sath bhase ja raha hun, aise feel hua. Main pyar bhara awaz se dheere dheere, almost fisfisake bolne laga
“Main hamesha se mere mann me wish karke aya ki mujhe ek khubsurat biwi mile…. Aur aaj duniya ka sabse khubsurat, sabse pyari ladki….. mera biwi banne ja rahi hai. Isse zada mujhe kuchh nahi chahiye”
Aur main chup ho gaya. Thodi der baad maa ruk ruk ke kahi
“Isse pehle…. Aur ek bar…….soch lena chahiye”
” Kya?…..kis bare me?”
” Papa mummy hamare beech……jo rishta chahte hai”
” Kyun?”
Is bar woh thoda time chup rahi. Fir se kahi
” Har jawan ladka ek najwan ladki pasand karta hai”
Ab mujhe samajh aya maa ka duvidha. Woh soch rahi hai nana nani ki baton me ake main raji hua is rishte ke liye. Lekin main unko kaise samjhaun ki mera andar me kab se unko pyar karte araha hun, unko chahte aaraha hun. Toh maine awaz me pyar bhar ke kaha
” Mujhe na kabhi koi najawan ladki dikha, jisko main chahun, na koi hai, jo tum jaisi pyari aur khubsurat. Mere dil me bas ek hi ladki hai…aur rahegi………woh hai..tum”
Woh kuch sochke boli
” Lekin mere me bhi …mujhme bhi .bahut sare khamiya hai”
” Matlab… kya?”
Fir chup hai. Main sunne ke liye betab hun ki woh kya bolna chahti hai. Kuchh moments baad woh dhhere dheere boli
” Main 36 ka hun. Bas kuchh din me…..main budhi ho jaungi…..”
Main turant jawab diya
” Toh main unko bhi utna hi pyar dunga, utna hi khushi dunga, jo ab dena chahta hun. Aur utna hi chahunga, jasse ab chahta hun”
Shayad mera baat unko achcha laga. Lekin fir woh bilkul khoi hui awaz se hesitate karte karte boli
“Aur ab…….agar….agar….main dobara maa nahi ban payi to!!”
Main jaise hi iss baat ka matlab samjha, achanak mera groin area me ek adbhut chinchinani anubhav karne laga. Jiske phal swarup mera penis ke andar khun daurne laga. But yeh paristhiti uske liye nahi hai. Isliye main khud ko controll kiya.
Aur ab yeh bhi mehsus kiya ki woh kis kis baaton ko leke apne andar jujh rahi hai. Woh nahi chahti hai apni pyari bete ka life kuchh pal ka galat decision se khatam ho jaye. Is rishte ko apnake, baad me koi bhi karan leke pachtawa na aye. Is me woh bhi dukhi honge aur main bhi. Lekin main is baat ko clear karna chaha. But kaise? Main bas aisehi bolna suru kiya.
” Main bachpan se jinke sath khushiyan bat te araha hun, unke sath hi mera har gham share karta hun. Mera har sukh, dukh, hasi, rona, anand, shanti sab kuchh unke sath hi juda hua hai. Na kabhi kisi ladki ko aankh uthake dekha, na kisiko chaha. Aur na kabhi kisiko chahunga. Mera dil me, harpal, jo mera dosar, mera inspiration hai, unko apna jeevan sathi banake zindagi gujar ne me jo khushi hai, usse zada kuchh nahi chahiye. Usme hi mujhe sab kuchh pana ho jayega.”
Ek moment ruk ke fir se bola
” Agar hamara naseeb me kuchh likha hai, toh usko hasi muh se swagat karenge, agar kuchh likha nahi hai toh usko bhi hasi muh se swikar karenge, kabhi gham nahi ayega.”
Main chup ho gaya. Mujhe khud ko malum nahi tha main itna sare baat bol paunga. But yeh bolke dil me sukun mil raha hai. Main kabhi kisike pyar ka izhar nahi kiya. Aaj mera honewali biwi ko bol diya. Main ustaraf ka bhavnayen janne ke liye gaur se sunne laga ki woh kya kehti hai. Lekin sab chup hai. Achanak mujhe shiski lene ka awaz mila. Main samajh nahi paya. Fir se woh awaz ayi. Ab main pareshan sa hone laga. Kuchh samajh nahi araha hai. Main utalwa ho gaya. But thoda time me jaise hi sab kuchh clear hua, mera chhati me pani ka tarang khel gaya. Mera dil pighal na suru ho gaya. Maa us taraf ro rahi hai. Mujhe malum hai, mera baton se unko yeh ashu behena pad raha hai. Main unko kuchh kehna chaha. But mera gala bhi buja hua hai. Kuchh nahi araha hai. Keval ek ichcha mann ko daurane laga. Mann kar raha hai is waqt main unke pass rehke, unko bahon me leke, apna sarir ke sath milake, unka jis pyar bhari sundar nazuk ankhon se ashu araha hai, usko chumte rahu, aur un ashu ko main pee jau yeh sapath ke sath ki main kabhi un ankhon se ek bund bhi ashu ane nahi dunga. Main dheere se bulana chaha aur mera galti ke liye maafi mangna chaha . So ki woh is emotion trajectory se bahar ajaye. But main yahan ek badha face karne laga. Hamesha unko maa kehke pukarta tha, ab in paristhiti me kya aur kaise bulana hai, yeh soch ke bhi kuchh kinara nahi kar paraha hun. Pati agar patni ko naam se bulaye to swabhabik hai. But yahan patni umra me bhi bada aur respect se bhi. Is liye unka naam se bulana thoda uncomfortable laga. Jab ustaraf thoda shant hua, main kuchh na pukar ke dheere se unko bola
” Mujhe maaf kar do”
Woh samajh gayi ki main samajh gaya us taraf kya ho raha hai. so woh khud ko sambhala. Aur awaz me thoda hasi milake pyar se kahi
” Kyun?”
Main chup tha. Unka mann ka bhavanon ko samjhne ka koshish kiya. Fir apna galti ko sudharne ka promise karte hue kaha
” Main aur kabhi nahi rulaunga”
Maa is bar thoda has padi. Aur ek param tripti ke sath kahi
” Budhdhu….aisa ashu bar bar bahane ke liye koi bhi ladki khud ko saubhagyashali mehsus karti hai. Main aaj itna din baad khud ko ek saubhagyashali mehsus kar raha hun…kyun ki…..”
Main fisfisake kaha
“Kya?”
Woh fisfisake kapkapati hui mithi swar se boli
” Mujhe …mujhe aap jaisa pati mil raha hai”
Yeh sunke mera dil tej dhadak ne laga. Ab toh yeh lag raha hai ki, unse zada main bhagyaban hun. Woh hamara honewala naya rishte ko abhi se is tarah apna liya aur unki dil ki dwar mere liye pura khol diya. Unki akhri baat mere mann me ek loop jaisa bar bar bajne laga. Main khush hoke ek cheez jo mera kaan me khatkkaya, wohi keh dia. Unhone sab thik kahi hai but ek mistake kardi. Woh mujhe galti se ‘aap’ keh dia. Jab unko bataya , toh unnka kehna hai ki woh galti se nahi, jaan bujh ke jo kehna sahi hai, wahi boli hai. Is bare me unke sath baat chit hone laga aur unki baat mujhe samajh aya. Akhir me mujhe ek saaf tasvir nazar aya. Woh andar se aur bahar se puri tarah bhartiya nari hai. Nana nani bhi unka parwarish waise hi kiya hai. Unke pass, pati umra me bada ho ya chhota, pati pati hota hai, rishte me bada hota hai. So woh apna pati ko aap kehke hi bulana pasand karegi. Aise hum dheere dheere apna dil ka dwar ek dusre ke liye khol diye. Ek dusre ko janne lage. Us raat bahut sare baaton baaton me humme waqt ka pata hi nahi chala. Aur hum subah 4 baje tak baat karte rahe. Jab main sone gaya, tab mujh me bas woh chhayi hui thi. Ab main unko mera biwi ke roop me har tarikese pane ka chahat me duba hua hun. Aur haan…main unko aaj bar bar bolne ke liye socha, fir bhi yeh nahi bol paya ki main kab se, aur kaise unko chahke araha hun. Pata nahi akhir yeh baat unko kabhi bata paun ya nahi.
Zindagi khusbsurat hai yeh main suna tha. Aur ab mehsus bhi kar raha hun. Ho sakta hai mera zindagi bachpan se baki auron jaisa tha nahi. Aur na auron jaisa ab hone ja raha hai. Father ke death ke baad , maa khud eksath maa-baap ka kirdar nivaya. Ek single parent ke liye ek kathin challenge tha mujhe sahi tarikese pal posh ke bada karneka. Aur woh yeh cheez bakhubi se nivaya. Haan..main yeh bhi manta hun is me mera nana ji aur nani ji ka bahut sara contribution hai. But maa hamesha apni dono hathon se mujhe sambhal ke rakha. Aur is liye unke sath mera lagav bhi shayad auron se zada..bahut zada hai. Aur ab toh….
Aaj kal main khud ko ek swadhin , paripurn admi jaisa mehsus kar raha hun. Apna life khud kaise banayenge, uske liye laga hun. Aur ab har kadam me main jo decision le raha hun ya jo bhi kuchh karne ja raha hun, woh sab mera honewali biwi ka support aur izazat se ho raha hai. Jab hamara life hum dono ko hi eksath bitana hai, ek sath har kadam milake chalna hai, tab hum abhi se ek sath hamara ghar , hamara family aur hamara future ke sare soch ek hi sath soch rahe hai. Maa ka har khwaish, har ichcha pura karna chahta hun. Woh jo chahenge, jaise karna pasand karenge, sab kuchh main waise hi karna chahunga. Unke sukh se hi main sukh dhund lunga, unke khushi se hi main khushi paunga. Woh mujhe ab patni ki pyar bhi jaise karti hai, waise kabhi kabhi dat te bhi hai. Mujhe unka woh cheezen bahut pasand hai. Hamesha unke pyar , mamta, sneh ke sath dat bhi mila hai. Aur aaj naye rishte me judne ke baad bhi unka har behave me woh sab ka halka touch mehsus karta hun. But farak yeh hai ki aaj kal woh mujhe respect bhi karti hai aur main yeh mehsus bhi kar pata hun. unka is tarike se mere pass pesh hona mujhe aur pyara lagta hai. Shayad is liye mujhe aur pyar ata hai unke upar.
Aaj lunch hour ke thoda baad unka phone aya. Main office toilet me tab susu kar raha tha. Jaise hi mobile screen pe unka naam ke sath sath unka smile kiya hua photo nazar aya, mere andar ek anubhuti jhalak deke gayeb ho gaya. Aur usme mera hath me pakda hua penis thoda kaap utha. Aaj kal unke sath baat karte waqt ya unke bare me sochte waqt yeh mehsus kar raha hun ki mera penis hamesha pehle ka normal size se thoda fula hua rehte hai. Pehle ka jaisa normal size me aaj kaal rehta hi nahi hai. Aur yeh problem shayad hamara suhagraat ke baad hi thik hoga.
Maine dusri hath se phone kaan pe tikake bola
” Haan maa…bolo”
Jaise hi bola, turant mujhe mehsus hua aur main has pada. Aur maa bhi udhar se phone pe hi has padi aur woh mujhe sunai dia. Main paristhiti sambhalne ke liye bolte raha
” Actually woh kya hai ki….pehle ka adat chhutne me time toh….”
Mera baat puri hone se pehle maa baat kat diya aur haste haste bolte rahi
” Bas bas….aur safai ka jarurat nahi. Maine aap ko keh diya tha ki meri mummy papa mera ek achchi naam deke rakha hai. Aur kya..babu ko shayad mera woh naam pasand hi nahi.”
Bolke fake gussa dikhake maa rukh gayi. Main unko kaise samjhaun ki mujhe unko naam leke pukarne me uncomfortable lagta hai. Aur nana nani ke samne toh kabhi waise bula bhi nahi paunga. Main koshish karke bhi unko samjha nahi paya. Shayad mujhe unke liye ek naam dhundna hi padega. Main toilet se bahar ake office ka uppar floor me pichhe ka balcony me agaya. Yahan koi ata nahi hai. Main situation sahaj karke bola
” Maine kab bola ki pasand nahi. Tumhara nakhun se leke baal tak sab kuchh duniyaka sab cheezon se zada pyari hai.”
Is me maa thoda khush hui aur pyar me pighalte pighalte boli
” Thik hai thik hai…aur jhut bolne ka jarurat nahi. Ab aap yeh bataiye kahan hai aap abhi?”
Maine bola
” Office me, bas abhi lunch karunga”
Maa turant awaz me bihsmoy leke boli
” Aap abhi bhi office me!!! Aur lunch bhi nahi kiye!!!”
Fir gale me thoda fake gussa lake boli
” Kal bhi to sham ko jake lunch kiye!! Aur aaj abhi bhi…..aap mera baat kabhi sunenge nahi kya?…….achcha ek baat bataiye…main pehle jab puchhta tha, to aap hamesha bolte the ki haan aap ka khana timely ho raha hai….”
Main maa ka bat kat ke boli
” Nahi nahi…main sach bolta hun…pehle timely hi khana khata tha. But….abhi….office ka kaam aur ghar ka kaam …dono sambhal ke time management thik se nahi ho paraha hai. Abhi khata hun aur fir office se nikal ke rani saheba ka sari pasandida cheezen kharid ke lata hun. Ok sona?”
Main maa ko pyar se ab bulaya toh shayad unko achcha bhi laga. Woh pyar me bhaste bhaste keval boli
” Hmmm……thik hai….jaiye…jake pehle khana khaiye”
Main pichhla do dinse ghar sajaneka saman kharid neme juta hua hun. Mujhe iss bare me koi experience tha nahi. Jab maa ko bola tab unhone mera sara problem khud apne sar pe le liya aur mujhe bas execute karne me chhod diya. Hamara naya ghar basane ke liye jo chhoti chhoti cheezon se leke badi cheezon ka jarurat padta hai sab unhone mujhe bata dete hai. Aur main unki pasand dida cheezen kharid ne me juta hun. Aaj office me kaam kam tha. So kal raat ko hi unko bol diya tha ki aaj lunch ke baad market jake sab leke aunga.
Furniture dukan me ek dressing table ka order karna hai, lambi mirror wali, jisme sliding mirror door ho. Ek merun color ki still almirah ka bhi order karna hai. Fir sare ghar ka parda kharid na hai aaj. Woh bhi brown or pink with floral design. Maa mujhe poi poi karke samjha dia ki parde ka kapre ka quality kaisa hona chahiye. Woh sab dekh ke kharid na hai. Ek cheez main har pal mehsus kar raha hun ki maa ka soch pehle se kuchh badal sa lag raha hai. Father ka death ke baad unke life me sab kuchh berangin ho gaya tha. Sab cheezen light ya white range ke andar limited tha. Lekin aaj kal sab kuchh bright color me pasand kar rahi hai. Ab zindagi me rang lake jeena chahti hai. Is liye andar ke sath, bahar bhi rang se saja rahi hai. Is nayi zindagi ko woh puri tarah har khushian ke sath jeena chahti hai. Main unko woh sab kuchh dene ke liye mann hi mann kasam khane laga.
Ghar ane me zada late nahi hua. Sab kaam thik se karke wapas ake dinner bhi kar liya. Maa ka ek message aya tha jab market se wapas araha tha. Aneke baad unse baat bhi kar liya. Aaj baki dinon se jaldi unse baat khatam kar di. Hum dono ko need ka shakhs jarurat hai. Pichhla 4 night hum baat zada kiya hai chhup chhup ke aur soya kam. Mujhe bhi subha office jana padta hai aur maa ko bhi ghar ka kaam wagera sambhal ne ke liye subha jaldu uthna padta hai. But aaj hamara dono ka body thaka hua tha. Aur kal main Ahmedabaad ja raha hun.
Maa se aaj der raat tak baat nahi horaha hai, lekin main so bhi nahi raha hun itna jaldi. Ab main PC khol ke samne baitha hu. Kal maine unse baat karte waqt bahut bhabuk ho gaya tha. Aur main unke samne ek cheez confess bhi kiya. Maine bata diya ki main kabse unhe pyar karte araha hun. Pichhla 6 saal se apna mann me unhe ek dusri tarah pyar karte araha hun–yeh baat clearly bata diya. Maine yeh bhi bola tha ki main kabhi us pyar ke bare me kisi ko janne nahi diya, na deta kabhi. But aaj hamara naseeb me jab aur kuchh likha hua hai, tab main yeh cheez unko batana jaruri samjha. Kyunki ab hamare beeech koi secret nahi rehna chahiye. Maa gaur se chup hoke mere baat sun rahi thi aur surprised bhi ho gayi thi. Maine bataya ki ho sakta hai mera woh sachcha pyar anjane me hamara naseeb me yehi parinati likh diya tha. Lekin jab maine unhe kaise pyar karte araha hun, yeh cheez haske halke se batane gaya, toh woh thoda sharma gaye aur fatafat topic change kar diya tha. Mujhe malum hai woh abhi bhi kuchh cheezon me itna bhi sahaj nahi ho payi mere pass ki woh mere sath sab kuchh kholke charcha kar paye. Specially jahan s*x ka baat juda hai, us territory me woh abhi bhi ek diwar banake rakhi hai. But main janta hun woh is bare me kitna pyasi honge. Pichhla atthara saal unhone akeli gujar di. Zindagi ka ahem bhag unhone woh sab bina kati hai. Unka bhi tann chahti honge ek paripurn tripti. Ek paripurn santusti. Kuchh hi din me hamara shadi hone ja raha hai. Aur hum pati patni banke pura life gujarne ja rahe hai. Main unhe woh sab kuchh dena chahta hun. Main abhi tak virgin hun. Aur woh mujhse 16 saal badi hai. Main kabhi internet s*x me addicted nahi hun. But main is paristhiti me internet se s*x education lene ka decision liya. Husband wife ko kya kya karna chahiye sukhi life bitane ke liye. Ek dusre ko mentally, sath sath physically bhi khush rakhna chahiye. So main s*x guide padna suru kiya do din se. Specially main zada pad raha hun ” How to satisfy older woman in bed”. Aur aaj, abhi main yehi pad raha hun.
Darwaja kholke naniji mujhe smile ke sath swagat kiya. But unhone mere chehre ke taraf dekh ke, thoda chintit hoke puchhe
” Kya hua beta!! Tumhara tabiyat to thik hai?”
Main pehle chonk gaya tha thoda. But baad me realize kiya ki shayad mera ankhon ke neeche jo halka sa kala dhabba dikh raha hai, usi ke karan naniji chintit ho gaye honge. Pichhla 5 raat thik se need puri nahi hui. Maa aur main do premi ke tarah raat bhar batein karte rahe. Aur sath hi sath office ka kaam ke alava ghar sajaneka kharidari me bahut hectic ho gaya tha. But main yeh sab unko kaise bataun ki unki beti se shadi karke ghar basane ke liye, unki beti ke sath milke main kya kya kar raha hun. Main paristhiti sambhalne ke liye kaha
” Haan naniji…main bilkul thik hun”
Naniji mere chehre ko gaur se dekhe aur fir nanaji ke taraf nazar ghumaye. Tab nanaji unko bole
” Arey bhai itna dur se travell karke araha hai. Tired ho gaye honge.”
Fir mere taraf dekhke bole
” Aaj raat kaske need le lo, subha ekdum fresh..hai ki nahi?”
Main thoda haske unka baaton ko sai dene laga. Main yeh mehsus kar raha hun ki, halanki main unlogon ka damad banne ja raha hun,but main unlogon ka pota bhi to hun. So aaj tak naniji mujhe jis nazar se dekh ke arahe hai, jaise mere bare me concerned hote aye, aaj bhi waise hi pyar, sneh aur mamta ke sath mujhe dekhe aur apna concerned bataye. Yeh bhi sahi hai ki maa aur main jaise ek transformation ke andar se gujar raha hun, woh logon ko bhi to time lagega apna pota ko puri tarah damad ke nazar me dekhne ke liye. Main sochte sochte darwaja khatkhataya tha ki kya main maa ko samne dekh paunga ki nahi. Lekin nahi. Woh nazdik kahin dikhai nahi dia.
Main drawing room me fan ke neeche baitha hun. Nanaji mere bagal me ek hi sofa me baithe hai. Nani ji unke side wala sofa me. Puri hapte me nanaji se mera itna zada baat nahi ho paya. Ek baar phone pe bataye the mumbai wali resort ke bare me sare information unko mil chuki hai. Ab wohi baat chheda hai unhone. Unki kisi janne wale se kuchh resort ke bare me information aur contact no mila hai. Unhone initial puchhtachh kar liya already. Keval jake ek bar samne se dekhke booking karke ana hai. In sab baton ke beech achanak maa chai leke aye. Main jahan baitha hun , wahan se nani ko dekhunga to unke pichhe kitchen ki taraf ka door hai. Mujhe mera position se us door ke bahar ka passage tak dikhai deta hai aur us passage ke left me kitchen ka door hai. Mujhe yahan baithke awaz se pata chala tha ki woh kitchen me thi. So nanaji se baat karte karte anjane me mera nazar bar bar us passage ke taraf ja raha tha. Kyunki mujhe ab mera biwi ka chehra dekhne ke liye mann bahut chanchal ho raha tha. So jab woh chai leke chalke arahe the, main baat karte karte idhar udhar dekhne ka acting kar raha tha aur unko ek jhalak sar se leke paon tak dekh liya. Woh chai ki tray ke upar nazar jhukake chalte arahi thi. Chehra bilkul normal tha, without any expression. Samajh gaya ki woh sab ke samne sahaj rehne ka koshish kar rahi hai. But fir bhi unko chalte huye ate dekhke mera chhati me ek ajeeb sirsirani anubhuti hota hai aur mera jeans ke neeche penis ke andar khun bharke fulne lagta hai. Woh nazdik ayi to main bhi nana nani ke samne unko directly zada dekh nahi paraha tha. But beech beech me nazar dal raha tha unke upar. Woh Nanaji ko chai diya aur mere samne wala centre table pe mera cup rakh diya. Abhi tak mere taraf nazar nahi uthaya. Naniji tabhi bol pade to maa nazar uthake unko dekhi. Naniji bole
” Arrey Manju…Hitesh ke liye nasta banade”
Fir nani mujhe dekh ke boli
” Beta kya khaoge….pratha banadun kya abhi?”
Maine kaha
” Haan. Kuchh bhi chalega”
Nani jab mere se baat kar rahi thi, maa tabhi bhi nani ko hi dekh rahi thi. Fir nani maa ko dekhke boli
” Methi hai na…toh methi ka pratha banade”
Maa sar hilake haan bolke chal padi aur kitchen ke taraf door se bahar nikal gayi. Aur woh jake kitchen me dakhil ho gayi. Maa aise ayi aur gayi jaise ki main wahan hun hi nahi. Mera presence ko pura ignore karke chali gayi. Mujhe bahut gussa aya. Phone pe baat karke hum kitna ek dusre ka nazdik ane laga , aur abhi ekdum dur kar rahi hai !! Mujhe unki diya hua chai bhi peene me gussa araha tha. But kya karun!! Ab yahan se uthke ja nahi sakte turant. Nana nani ke samne fir ek dusri paristhitiyan create ho jayega. Fir socha ki thik hai, ab dur reh rahi hai, lekin kab tak dur rehke bhagegi mere se. Main bhi jiddi hun, unko jald hi jald mera bahon me chahiye. Yeh sochke gussa thoda thanda hone laga aur main chai ka cup uthake naniji ko dekhte dekhte sip marne laga. Nani ji yeh keh rahi hai ki shadi ka do din pehle humme resort pahuch jana chahiye aur fir shadi ke baad next day hum sab wahan se nikal jayenge. Aur nanaji kehte hai ki itna din wahan rehke kya karna hai. Shadi ka ek din pehle jana hai. Next day shadi ka muhurat subhe me hai. So shadi jaldi jaldi khatam ho jayega aur usi din dopahar me hum nikal jayenge. Jab yeh leke unlogon ke andar behes chal raha tha, tab main keval silent darshak banke undono ko dekh raha tha. Main nani ko dekh raha tha, tabhi maa kitchen se bahar ake uss passage me ayi. Ake nana nani ka nazar chhipke diwar pe tik lagake khadi hoke mujhe dekhne lagi. Main unke taraf nazar na deke bhi yeh sab mera side vision se dekh paraha hun. Mere andar tabhi bhi thoda gussa bhatak raha tha. Is liye mann me unko dekhne ka prabal ichcha tha, fir bhi main bahut time se khud ko controll karke nahi dekh raha tha. Woh wahan khadi khadi mujhe dekh rahi thi aur unka saree ka anchal khud ki hath ka ungliyan me leke gol gol ghuma rahi thi. Main khud se jujh raha ki main unke taraf dekhunga nahi. But kuchh time baad jaise hi main ekbar sar mod ne gaya, toh aankh se aankh mil gaya. Mere se nazar milte hi ek sharam ka muskurahat unke hoth ke khil gaya. Aur nazar jhuka liya. Lekin gayi nahi. Wahan khadi rahi. Fir mujhe dekha. Mujhe gussa fir bad gaya. Abhi thoda der pehle aise ignore karke gayi, aur abhi chup chupke mujhe dekhke muskura bhi rahi hai. Main bhi ignore kiya aur muh modke nazar nani ke taraf tikaya. But mere off vision me mujhe pata chal raha hai ki woh tabhi bhi wahan khadi hoke mujhe dekh rahi hai. Ab mere khud ke upar gussa aya. Main kyun dekha abhi unko. Mere is harkat se unko pata chal gaya ki main gusse me hun aur woh jan bujhke mujhe chidaneke liye abhi bhi wahan khadi hai. Bachpan se sabse achchi tarike woh mujhe janti hai. Mera har nazar ka, har baaton ka, har chuppi ka matlab mere se zada unko pata hai. Main ab unse pakda gaya. Agar nahi dekhta to thik tha. Lekin kya karen, is nazar ka kya galti, jalim mann hi nahi manta unko bina dekhke.
Thoda time baad maa kitchen me chali gayi aur yahan tab tak yeh baat final ho raha hai ki resort me jayenge do din pehle but shadi ka din dopahar ko nikal jayenge. Is me nana nani dono ka baat adha adha raha. Aur nanaji mere taraf mod ke bola
” Toh aise hi booking le lete hai?”
Main jaise hi haan bolne ja raha hun tabhi bip bip karke sms aya. Main “haan” bolke mobile check karne gaya aur naniji nanaji ko puchhe ki mumbai jayenge to ek sath, but wahan se kaun kahan lautega? Main inbox me dekha maa ka sms. Unhone likha
“Mummy sahi keh rahi hai. Aap ko dekh ke lagta hai aap bimar pad gaye”
Kitchen se beech beech me halka awaz arahi hai pratha banane ka. Mere andar ka gussa dheere dheere pighalne laga aur mujhe maa ko tease karne ka mann kiya. Maine reply kiya
” Toh thik hai. Main nani ko bata deta hun ki kyun aur kaise yeh sab hua”
Maine send button dabake sunne ki koshish kar raha tha ki maa ko sms receive hua ki nahi. Koi message tone sunai nahi dia. Shayad abhi tak gaya nahi. But turant mera mobile bip bip karne lagi. Maa ka sms. Unhone likha
” Arrey nahi nahi….aisa mat kijiye. Aap itna gusse me kyun ho?”
Main samajh gaya maa phone silent mode pe rakhi hai. Nana nani ko pata na chale. Main bhi mera mobile ko silent mode pe dal dia. Main nana nani ka baat sunne ka acting karke casually jaise kuchh karte hai mobile me, waise hi mobile me sms type karte karte maa se sms ke jariye baat karne laga. Main likha
” Tum jo mere se itna dur bhag rahi ho”
Unka reply turant agaya
” Dur kahan !! Main to idhar hi hun. Itni pass.”
Main thoda soch ke type kiya
” Nahi…. Meri biwi ko mera aur pass chahiye.”
Kuchh time reply nahi aya. But malum hai yeh sms unhone pad liya. Mera ungliyan mobile key pad ke uppar naach raha hai is tension me ki woh kya reply dete hai. But kuchh bhi responce nahi aya. Kitchen se abhi bhi awaz araha hai. Achanak mob vibrate hua. Dekha ki unhone reply dia.
” Time ane dijiye, aap ko aap ki biwi ko jitna pass chahiye mil jayega”
Maa ne iss tarah baat pehli baar chhedi hai. Aaj tak hamesha iss domain ko pyar se avoid karti thi. But aaj unhone unki dil ki dwar pura kholke keh diya ki woh ab khud ko puri tarah se meri biwi manne lagi.
Yeh message padte aisa laga ki mere sarir ka pura khun ake mera penis me jam raha hai. Woh fatak se ek dum khada ho gaya. Main apna ek pair dusri pair ke upar uthake nana nani ke samne mera groin area ko daba ke control karne laga. Unlogon ko dekhte dekhte bolne ka mann kar raha tha ki aaj hi shadi ka muhurat nikal lijiye aur aaj raat me hi hamara suhagraat ho gaye. Achanak mera yeh bhavnayen tuta nanaji ka sawal se. Unhone mere taraf dekh ke puchh rahe hai
” Tum kya bolte ho beta?”
Main ek dum blank jaisa ban gaya. Samajh nahi paya ki woh kya puchh rahe hai. Kyun ki pichhla kuchh palon se main unlogon ka baat chit nahi sun raha tha. Mujhe malum nahi ab kis bare me baat ho raha tha jo nanaji aisa sawal puchhe. Main fir bhi situation sambhalneke liye bola
” Main kya bolun nanaji. Aap log jo achcha samjhenge”
Nana ko yeh pata nahi chala ki main hawa me teer chhoda. Woh seriously bole
” Nahi nahi..aisa baat nahi. Agar tum ko zada Chhutti mile to tum dono mumbai se wapas yahan aasakte ho. Aur nahi to main aur tumhara nani yahan ajaunga aur tum log MP nikal sakte ho. Tum to wahan rehne ka sab bandobast kar hi rahe honge. Aur hum bhi kuchh din baad ek baar wahan jake dekh ke bhi ayenge.”
Tab main samjha ki shadi ke baad mumbai resort se kaun kahan jayenge yeh leke puchhe honge unhone. Maine bola
” Hamare sath aap log bhi to chal sakte hai MP me?”
Tab nanaji reply dene me thoda hichkicha rahe the to naniji unse baat pakad ke boli
” Kya hai ki beta.. ab se tum dono ko hi zindagi me eksath chalna hai. So tum dono jake apna naya ghar basana suru karo.”
Fir nana ko dekhke haste haste mere taraf mud ke boli
” Aur hum to ayenge hi. Hamara beti ka jo ghar hai — nahi jayenge kya? Tumhara nana bol rahe the ki kuchh din baad aram se time leke ek bada ghar me shift hojao. Beech beech me hum bhi jake kuchh din rehke ayenge udhar”
Is baat pe mere andar ek halka sa kampan abhubav kiya. Main ab realize kiya ki yeh log mujhe aur maa ko MP bhej ke kyun khud Ahmedabad wapas ana chahte hai. Shadi ke baad mujhe aur maa ko ekant me chhodna chahte hai. Newly married couple ke beech kebab me haddi nahi banna chahte hai. Maa ke sath mera conjugal life sahi tarah se ban jaye, is liye humme akele chhod rahe hai. Unko malum hai ab us ghar pe bed room ek hai. Agar woh log wahan jayenge to raat ko sone me bhi problem hoga. Aur yeh bhi jante hai ki main ek najawan ladka aur maa bhi 18 saal se pati ka pyar ke bina gujare. Shadi ke baad hum dono ka ek dusre ke liye chahat to zada rehga hi. Yeh sab karan ke liye woh log aur kuchh bahana banake hum dono ko akele chhodna chahte hai. Mujhe andar hi andar unlogon ka samne thoda sharam araha tha. Is mamle me aur zada kuchh charcha nahi hua. Decide hua ki shadi ke din dopahar ko nana nani Ahmedabad aajayenge aur maa mere sath MP chalenge. Aur main fresh hone ke liye apni room me chala. But mere mann ab ekdum rukna nahi chahte hai. Main na jane kyun aaj maa ko apni bahon me pane ke liye bahut utawala ho raha hun. Main apni room me jate jate sochne laga ab kaise mere pass, ekdum pass, mere chhati ke sath ekdum milake meri biwi ko pake , mera mann ko shant karun.
Aaj sunday ka din tha but aaj sabse zada busy din tha. Subha ghar se nikle the aur adha din pura bahar gujar ke jab ghar lauta, tab lunch time over ho chuka tha. Isliye aaj ka khana bhi late hua. Maa aur nani pehle kha liya tha. Main aur nanaji kahne baithe to nani pass me baithke dekhbhal karne lagi lekin maa hi khana parosh rahi thi. Kal raat dinner table pe bhi aisa hua tha. Maa ab sab ke samne sahaj hoke sab kuchh kar rahi hai. Lekin sab ke samne mujhe ek bhi bar nazar uthake directly dekh nahi rahi hai. Actually is bar ghar par main aur maa dono hi ek ajeeb situation me pad gaye. Hum phone pe to bahut sare batein karte hai. Hamara anewale future ko leke dono eksath soch ne bhi lag gaye. Hum ek dusre ke pass sahaj hogaye the. But long distance me jitna comfortable the, amne samne waisa ho nahi raha tha. Specially nana nani ki presence me. Hum chhup chhup ke dono premion ki tarah milghul gaye the phone pe. But unlogon ke samne waisa hone me ek sharam aya. Last time se achanak aisa badal unlogon ka nazar me jarur ayega. So maa aur main dono hi shayad alag alag aisa hi socha. Is liye woh mere samne to aarahi hai but mere se nazar ghumake rakhi hai. Ya to woh mere samne nana nani se baat kar rahi hai, nahi to nazar hatake kuchh kaam kar rahi hai. But jab nana nani dusri taraf busy hai tab woh mujhe chhup ke dekhti hai. Fir nazar milne me kuchh time baad sharma ke jhuka leti hai. Unki naram gulabi patli hothon pe muskan mujhe pagal kar deta hai. Unko mere samne aisa chalte firte, batein karte, haste hue dekhke mere chhati me harpal ek halka sirsirani anubhuti hota hai. Mera penis mere underwear ke andar shakht hoke reh raha hai. Main yeh cheez bahut dhyan se chhupa raha hun. Main aise toh tired tha aur sath me aaj nanaji ke sath Ahmedabad jake shadi ka sherwani pasand karke measurement wagera deke aya. Fir jewelry dukan me mera ungli ka naap diya anguthi banane ke liye. Fir hum do bade travel bag kharida. Fir aur kuchh idhar udhar ka ghar ka saman kharidte kharidte late ho gaya tha. Hum taxi se sab saman leke ghar agaya. Itne sab ke wajah se jab khana khake main thoda aram karne ke liye let gaya to tab pata nahi kab need agaya. Aur sham ko nani ji mujha jagaya to main fatafat uthke ready hoke nikal pada. Nikalte waqt maa drawing room me durwali door pe khadi thi. Main nana nani se bida leke ek bar kuchh palon ke liye maa ke taraf dekha. Unki aankhon me harbar maa ka pyar aur mamta dekh ke jate the, is bar woh nahi tha. Is bar aisa laga ki pati jab patni ko chhodke dur jate hai, tab patni ke namm ankhon me jo pyar aur dard rehta hai, jiske jariye woh apni dil ki sare batein bina kehke bata dete hai, woh nazar se mujhe dekh rahi thi. Aur mera mann bhari ho gaya.
Train me so so ke maa ke bare me soch raha tha. Agar hamara takdir humme aaj zindagi ka is mod pe nahi lata, toh bahut kuchh malum nahi padta. Maa ko bachpan se maa ke roop me hi dekhke araha hun. Woh hamesha ek achchi maa thi aur sath hi sath ek achchi beti. Father ke death ke time woh keval 18 saal ki thi. Tabhi is duniya me khali ek beta ko sahara karke jeene ka kasam khai. Dobara aur kisiko unke dil me bithane ke bare me kabhi socha nahi. Ek dutiful maa banke, ek adarsh beti banke reh gayi apni khud ka sari khushian visharjan deke. Mujhe bada karne me aur khud ki mummy papa ka sath rehke unke dekhbhal karne ke andar hi woh apna khushi dhundti thi. Nani kitni bar keh chuke hai ki ghar ka khana banane ke liye ek bai rakh lete hai. But maa hamesha kehti hai ki jab woh hai hi to bahar ka logon se khana pakane ka kya jarrurat. Aur woh bhi chahti thi ghar ka kaam kaj me jute rahe to apna time bhi bit jayega aur sarir bhi active aur fit rahega. Woh din bhar kuchh na kuchh karti hai lekin dekhke lagta nahi. Unka pura sarir, hath, pair itna sundar hai, lagta hai jaise ki woh unki papa ka ladli beti hai aur aram se zindagi bitati hai, yani ki filmein dekh ke, novel padke, doston ke sath ghum firke, beauty parlor aur spa me time bitake, khud ko properly maintain karke rakhi hai. Unki skin abhi bhi teenage girl jaisi hai, dekh ke pata nahi chalta woh 36 ka hai. Unki hathon ka, pairon ka ungliyan aur nails kitni sahi tarike se khud hi maintain kia hai. Dekhke lagta nahi inhi hathon se din bhar kitni kaam karti hai. Unki pura sarir kitni naram aur mulayemsa hai, who kal raat mujhe pata chal gaya. Shayad nature ne unko yeh gift deke rakhi hai. Shayad unki naseeb me yeh shadi likhi hui thi, iss liye woh aaj bhi ek najawan kunwari ladki jaisi dikhti hai. Pehle se hi unka sab cheezen mujhe achcha lagta tha, pasand tha. But jab se shadi ka baat chal raha hai, tab se unki woh sab cheezen mujhe aur khubsurat, pyari aur s*xy lagta hai. Pehle nani sath me milke ghar ka kaam kaj karte the, but nani ka umra badh raha hai. Ab maa akele hi pura ghar ka sab kuchh sambhalte aarahe hai. Aaj bhi dono time maa pyar se sab ke liye khana banati hai. Aur unka hath ka khana mujhe duniya ka sabse swadist lagta hai. Aur naseeb ke fere me mujhe ab puri zindagi unki hath ka khana khane ka saubhagya ho raha hai.
Itna sacrifice kiya. Shayad is liye aaj unko fir se ek naya zindagi milne ja raha hai. Keval teen hi saal unko apni pati ka pyar mila. Kitna khwaishen, kinte sare sapne sab dil me dafan kar karke rakh diya tha. Lekin main chahta hun unki sare khwaishen, sare adhura sapna puri karneka. Aabhi woh aur maa nahi, ek patni ban chuki hai. Apni bete ko jo ab unki pati banne ja raha hai, unko apna tann mann sab kuch sonp na chahti hai. Woh bhi pati ka pyar ka pyasi hai. Zindagi ka har pal pati ka pyar se guzar na chahti hai. Apni har khushi, har gham pati se share karna chahti hai. Mera mann me kasam kha liya. Ek patni ko apni pati se jo jo milna chahiye, main sab kuchh unhe dena chahta hun. Woh hamesha se ek gharelu aurat hai. Apna ghar sansar ka dekhbhal karna, pati seva karna, bachchon ka khyal rakhna–in sab leke khushi se jeena chahti hai. Main bhi hamesha jo biwi ka khawab dekhta tha, woh aise hi ek gharelu khubsurat ladki ka tha. Mujhe ab unko biwi ke roop me pake duniya ka sabse khush naseeb insan samajhta hun.
Aaj train me dinner ke liye tiffin me wahi methi paratha banake diya maa ne. Kal sham methi ka paratha aur dahi khaya tha. Fir TV dekhte dekhte maa ko sms kiya tha ki ” mera sara tiredness tumhara hath ka bana hua methi paratha khake dur ho gaya.”
Tab toh woh kitchen me dinner bana rahi thi. Mobile check nahi par payi. Lekin baad me bhi uska koi reply diya nahi tha. But ab tiffin kholke pata chala woh us baat ko padha aur mann me rakh diya tha.
Kal sham ko nanaji se yehi baat hua ki aaj jake sherwani aur anguthi ka measurement dena hai. Nazdiki koi bhi dukan me nahi. Sab nanaji ko jante hai. Sab ka shauq hoga kyun aur kis liye yeh le raha hun. Is liye Ahmedabad city me jake lena pada. Fir dinner ke baad nanaji aur kuchh batein kiye nahi. Kyun ki woh jante the main thaka hua tha. Fir subha uthke nikal na hai unke sath. Is liye jaldi woh bhi sone chale gaye aur mujhe bhi sone ke liye bol diye. Sab jaldi dinner karke apni apni room me chale gaye.
Main room me ake darwaja lock nahi kiya , aise hi bandh kar dia. Maa mera bistar barabar fitfat karke gayi. Main dinner se pehle jab TV dekh raha tha, shayad tab ake yeh sab kar gayi hogi. Pichhla kuchh din se jaisa chal raha tha, aaj thoda alag lag raha hai. Kuchh din se raat ko dinner ke baad main maa se phone pe baat karte aaraha hun. So aaj mujhe woh cheez missing laga sone se pehle. But maa ko ab call nahi kar payenge. Dono room me baat hoga to nana nani ko jarur pata chalega. So main study table pe baitha aur mobile pe sms type kiya
” Kya kar rahi ho?” Fir maa ko send kar diya. Turant reply aya. Shayad maa bhi mere jaisa same feel kar rahi hai. Unhone likha
” Sone ka taiyari”
Main ab kya likhun sochte sochte type kiya
” Lekin main nahi so paunga”
Is baar thoda time liya unhone. Samajh nahi payi main aise kyun likha. Is liye unhone puchhi
” Kyun….kya hua”
Main ne hoth pe thoda muskurahat lake likha
” Kyun ki sone ke time mera jo adat tha, woh aaj kal nahi ho paraha hai, is liye to aaj kal need nahi ati thik se”
Unhone likhi
” Woh kya..!!!.”
Main likha
” Sone se pehle garam dudh peene ka aur tumhara hath se mera sar ka baalon me sparsh pane ka adat pad gayi”
Main wait karte raha ki woh kya reply de. Mujhe zada intezar nahi karna pada. Unhone likhke bheji
” Toh abb….!!! “
Maine kuchh socha aur type kiya
” Ab kya…mera need nahi ayega. Main jaga rahunha aur mera tabiyat kharab hote jayega. Tumhara kya. Tum aram se so jao “
Mere me badmashi chad gaya. Main send kar dia. But unhone kaise react karenge pata nahi tha. But jab unka reply aya tab pata chala woh mera badmashi pakad liya. Unhone likhi
“Uffff…. Thik hai. Main dudh leke ati hun”
yeh padke mere andar khun daurne laga. Main socha nahi tha ki maa itna asani se mere mann ka ichcha jan jayegi. Jiss tarike se aaj ane ke baad se woh mujhe dur rakh rahi hai, usi ko sochke main kalpana nahi kiya tha ki woh abhi mujhse milne ayegi. Main ane ke baad se chah raha tha ki maa ke sath ekant me ek mulakat ho. Aur puri sham maa mujhe jo gussa dila rahi thi, tabhi se unko mere bahon me pane ke liye mann chalchal ho raha tha. Main study table se uthke ekbar bed me jake baitha. Fir ek bekufi sa laga. Toh fir main chair me jake baitha. Chair tha without handrest. So main table ke taraf na baithke yani ki andar ke taraf pair na ghusake, side ways me baitha hun, so left side me table aur right side me chair ka back rest hai. Main soch me duba tha. Abhi tak hamara shadi hua nahi. Shashtra sammati se abhi tak hum pati patni nahi bane. But yeh bhi sahi hai ki ab hum maa beta bhi nahi rahe. Hum ek dusre ko mann se pati patni maan na suru kar diya. Mann ek dusre ko pati patni ke hisab se grahan kar liya. Main ek hapte se masturbate kiya nahi. Mere balls ke andar sare birya jama hoke hamesha bhari rehta hai. Kabhi kabhi nikal jana chahta hai. Main hamara suhag raat me ek dusre ko paripurn tripti dene ke liye intezar kar raha tha. Lekin ab sarir ke andar ek aisa kampan ho raha hai, ki agar aaj mera balls khali hoke sab maa ke sarir ke andar chala jaye toh koi khed nahi hoga. Mere isi sochke andar achanak maa door kholke andar ayi. Hath me dudh ka glass hai. Saree pehni hui hai lekin saree ka anchan pichhe se ghuma ke lake samne kamar me gonja hua hai. Iss me unki ekside ka flat gori mulayem pet aur zada nazar arahi hai. Anchal gonj ne ke karan saree tight hoke chhati ke upar se gayi aur usme unki gol gol medium size ki boobs aur samne ke taraf uthke dikhai de raha hai. Unhone baal ko ek casual juda bana ke rakhi hai, jo dheela hoke pichhe garden ke upar padi hai. Unko dekhtehi mera penis ekdum shakt hoke under wear ke andar fusne lagta hai. Jaise ki abhi who kapda fad ke bahar ana chahta hai aur sahi jagah pe ghusne ke liye taiyar hai. But main khud ko controll kiya. Baithe baithe pair cross tha, toh usko dabake rakh dia. Maa andar ake rukh gayi. Mere se nazar milake sharma gayi. Aur nazar jhukake muskura di. Fir woh wahi khade khade pichhe hath le jake dheere se door bandh karti hai. Aur study table ke taraf chalke ane lagti hai. Main unhi ko dekh raha hun. Yeh mehsus karke woh nazar uthake mujhe dekh nahi rahi hai. Mera nazdik ake table ke pass khadi ho gayi. Aur fir glass table par rakh diya. Ek hapte se hum jitna sara intimate aur secret baat kahi thi, woh mere dimag me jhalak de de ke ja raha hai. Main kuchh na bolke keval dekhe jaraha hun. Woh chup hoke wahan khadi rahi. Left hand ka ungliyan se table ka kinara sparsh ki. Woh dheere se hothon pe muskurahat kayem rakhte hue boli
” ab dudh pee lijiye aur so jaiye”
Keh ke kuchh pal aise khadii hone ke baad woh mudi aur jane ke liye kadam rakha. Jaise woh mudi aur age badhne ka koshish kiya, main fat se mera left hand se unka right hand pakad liya. Aur woh ruk gayi. Lekin mujhe ghumke dekha nahi. Unko touch karte hi mere sarir kaap uthi aur woh bhi halka sa kaap gayi. Main ekdum dheere se kaha
” Mujhe need kaise ayega….tumne apna hath mera balon me jo firaya nahi”
Woh kuchh jabab bhi diya nahi aur janeke liye hath bhi nahi chhudwaya.. Bas mere taraf pith karke khadi rahi. Unki saans ke sath sath pith halka halka ful raha hai. Main chair chhodke dheere se utha. Unki hath mere hath me rakh ke hi unki samne gaya. Woh mere se height me chhoti hai. Uske upar nazar jhukane ke sath thoda sar bhi jhuk gaya unki. Main unka chehra nahi dekh paraha hun thik se. Hamare beech fasle bahut hi kam hai. Jaise ki dono agar jor se saans leke chhati fulaye to dono ka chhati touch ho jayega. Aisi position pe khade hoke mujhe unka naak dikh raha hai, naak ke samne wala bhag ssans ke sath sath ful raha hai aur thoda thoda kaanp bhi raha hai. Aur unki cleavage ka passage clearly nazar araha hai. . Makhkhan jaise mulayem dono boobs ka upar ka bhag blouse ke uparwala hisse se thoda nazar araha hai. Mujhe aur ruka nahi gaya. Mera hath unka hath chhod dia. Fir main dono hath se unki pet touch karke, ragad ke le jake kamar ke taraf pakda. Unki pura badan me ek kampan mehsus kar raha hun aur unki saansen bhi badal raha hai. Mera chhati me ek tufan jaisa chal raha hai. Mera ek hath unka pet ke upar ka saree ke upar hai. Lekin dusri hath unki naram, masrin pet ko chhun ke kamar ke pass pakda hua hai. Mera nazar unke upar jhuka hua hai. Main hum dono ke beech wala gap se dekh paraha hun mera penis pajama ke andar rehke bhi ful ke uncha ho gaya. Mera groin area me ek tambu jaisa hua hai. Mera bhi saansen dheere dheere tej ho raha hai. Main mera hathon ko unki kamar se rub karke pet ke taraf laya aur fir kamar pe le gaya. Sath hi sath mera sar neeche karke mera fore head unki fore head ke upar jahan se sar ka baal suru hota hai, wahan touch karwaya. Dheere dheere humare beech ka fasle kamte ja raha tha. Humme se koi bhi age nahi ja raha hai , fir bhi hum dono ka sarir ek dusre ke taraf badne lagi. Main pehle mera chhati pe unka naram boobs ka sparsh mehsus kia. Fir unka naak mera chhati touch kiya. Fir unki pura sarir mere sarir pe mil gaya. Unki naak ab mera chhati pe jahan t-shirt ka button khula hua tha, usi area me chipkake rakhdi. Unka garam saans mera skin pe touch ho raha hai. Woh unki dono hath mera arms ke neeche se pichhe le jake upar ki taraf mod ke mera kandha pakadli .. Main unki muththi ka grip mera kandha pe mehsus kia. Mera chin unki sar ke upar rakha hua hai. Main unki pet se ragad ke dono hath pechhe pith ke upar leke gaya. Aur ek hath se unki blouse aur kamar me bandha hua saree ke beechwala open area me mera ungliyan ragadne laga. Aur dusri hath se blouse ke upar kandha ke pass wala area ko sehlane laga. Woh bas beech beech me apna muththi ka grip lose kar rahi hai aur fir tight karke mera kandha ko pakad rakhi hai. Hum dono ka saans ab bahut tej chal raha hai. Aise hum dono ek dusre ko apne sarir ke upar milake kuchh time ek dusreko mehsus karne laga. Main lambai me bhi unse zada aur sarir ka gathan me bhi. Is liye aisa lag raha hai ki mera lamba chawda sarir ke upar unki halki pulki naram chhota sarir aram se pada hua hai. Mujhe malum hai mera shakt penis unki pet pe laga hua hai. Aur woh jarur usko mehsus kiya. Fir bhi mera penis kya chahta hai who batane ke liye main mera hathon se unki patli kamar pakadke thoda aur apne taraf khicha. Woh ab bilkul mere badan me chipak ke lag gayi aur unka groin area mere sath touch karke mujhe kaske pakadli. Woh apna naak thoda thoda mera gale ke pass skin pe ragad rahi hai. Unki boobs ka garmi mere t shirt cross karke mera chhati pe mehsus ho raha hai. Mera tana hua penis unki naram pet ke upar aur jor press hone laga. Main pagal sa ho gaya. Mujhe aur ruka nahi gaya. Main unki baalon ke andar apna naak dubo ke unki balon ka mehek lene laga. Aur apni dono hath unki pura pith pe sehlan laga. Who bhi dhhere dhhere uttejit ho rahi thi. Unki hath ab mera kandha chhodke mera pith ke upar ghum ghum ke mera sarir ko mehsus karne lagi. Main thoda bend ho gaya aur hamare beech thoda gap banake mera naak baalon me se ragad ke unki left kaan ko sparsh karke garden pe leke aya. Aur mera hothon se unki gardan ko chhune laga. Is position pe woh apni muh mere left kandha ke upar le jake unki chin ko upar ke taraf kar diya. Main ab mera naak aur hoth ko ragad te ragadte unki gale me laya. Main jaise hi itna tak jhuka , mera penis ka tambu ab unki groin area me touch ho raha hai. Main unki gale ko chum te chhumte mera kamar ko bend karke age badhake, mera shakt penis ko unki groin me press kar diya aur dono hathon se unki patli kamar kas ke pakad ke mere penis ke upar khich laya. Unki muh se siskariyan likalne lagi. Main mera muh ko ab unki dusri kaan ke pass leke jake chuma to woh unki sar ko ghumake mera dusri kandha ke upar leke gaya. Aur gardan ko thoda hilake mujhe aur jagah bana diya. Main mera hath unki kamar ko chhodke unki pith pe laya aur mera ungliyan unki blouse ke neeche se andar ghus gaya. Mujhe mere ungliyan se unki bra ke sparsh mila. Main pagal ho gaya. Aur mera muh kholke unki gori aur mulayem kandha pe ek halka bite kar diya. Maa tabhi ek tej shiski ke sath unki groin ko khud mere penis ke upar press kar diya.main samajh gaya ab woh kya chahti hai. Main jhat se mera muh aur neeche karke fatak se unki cleavage me mera naak dubo diya aur jor se ek swas liya. Tabhi unki hathon ki ungliyan mere pith ke upar zor se dabke baith gaya. Mera gallon me unki naram naram boobs ka halka halka touch lag raha hai dono tarafse. Aise hone me lag raha hai mera pajama ke andar hi main jhar jaunga. lekin main yeh nahi chahta hun. main unke andar jharne chahta hun. Main khud ko thoda control karke sidha hoke khada ho gaya aur dono hath se unki pith pakad ke unki chehra ko dekha. Ab mere ankhon me nasha lag gaya. Main usi nasheli nazar se unki chehra ko dekh raha tha.. Unki naram naram patli gulabi hoth kaanp rahi hai. Who bhi ankh kholke mujhe dekha. Unko bhi nasha agaya. Hum dono ek dusre ki ankhon ke andar dekh rahe hai. Dono ka saans teji se beh rahi hai. Main mera balls ke andar khalbali ko control karne ke liye, mera hoth ko dheere dheere neche lejake unki fore head ke pass le gaya aur unki forehead ko chuma. Fir unki naak ko dheere se chuma. Fir unki chin ko. Har chumban ke time who kuchh pal ke liye apna aankh mund ke mera pyar ko mehsus kar rahi hai. Dono ka garam saansen dono ka chehre ke upar mehsus kar raha hun. Unki gulabi hoth ab mujhe paglon ki tarah khich rahi hai. Main madhosh hoke mera aankh band karke dhhere dhere mera hoth unki hothon ke upar legaya. Mera hoth touch ho gaya . Us area bahut naram aur garam hai.. Main aur achchi tarah se mehsus karne ke liye mera hothon ko halka kholte hi achanak mere dimag me kuchh sanket gaya. Main turant ankh khola. Aur dekha ki mera hoth aur maa ke hothon ke beech unki hath rakha hua hai aur main unki naram hatheli par chum raha tha. Unse nazar miltehi unke ankhon me ek sharam aur muskurahat dikhai diya. Main ruk gaya. Samaj nahi aya achanak unhone aisa kyun kar diya. Main apni swas ko controll karte karte fisfiske kaha
�kya hua!�
who apni hatheli ko wasahi rakhke apni chehra adha chhupake nazar jhuka li aur fisfisake boli
�Aur nahi…Bas�
Main thoda nirash ho gaya. Achanak aise ruk ne ke karan mujhe thoda gussa bhi aa raha tha. Mera penis uska pasandida jagah pe ghusne ke liye betab hua hai. Fir bhi dhhere se puchha
�Kyun!!�
who ab nazar uthake mere taraf dekha aur ruk ruk ke boli
�Aap ko……aapke pass chahiye tha na!! Pass hi to aagayi…�
Main sham ko jo sms kia tha � mujhe meri biwi ko mere pass chahiye�, usi baat ko leke yeh kahi hai. But mujhe aur ruka nahi jaraha hai. Main unke andar ghuske mera penis ka fula hua bada cap ko deep me le jake mera balls ka sara birya unki andar chhod ke shant hona chahta hun. Main awaz me aur pyar aur passion lake fisfisaya
�Nahi….aur pass chahiye�
Bolke mera dono hathon se unko mere taraf khicha. Who apni hatheli waisa hi hum dono ki hothon ke beech rakhke, thoda natkhat sa banke ankhon me aur muskurahat lake ek dum fisfisake boli
�To� aur time ane dijiye….�
Main samajh gaya ab who kisi bhi halat me kuchh karne ke liye taiyar nahi hai. Shayad unko khud ko aur waqt chahiye unki b�te ke pass jo ab unki pati banne jaraha hai, uske pass khud ko puri tarah soan ne keliye. Main unki ichcha ke khilaf kuchh bhi kadam uthake unko dukh nahi pauchana chahtaa tha. Woh apni tann mann pichhla 18 saalon se aur kisi ko diya nahi. Nahi aur kisi ko apni dil me pati ke roop me bithana chaha. Lekin aaj woh apni sab cheezen mujhe�..keval mujhe deneke liye taiyar hai. Meri patni banne ke liye taiyar hai. Aur mujhe iska samman dena chahiye. Mujhe malum hai woh to ab bas meri hai. Zindagi bhar unhe pyar karne ko milegi. Aur main bhi keval unko hi pyar karna chahta hun. apni biwi ke roop me pana chahta hun, keval is janam me nahi, algi saat janam tak.
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